bestest friends forever

2010-01-30T06:16:00.000-08:00

finally here to blog.
apologise for the long absences.
so much has happened lately.
especially when its sec 4 year...
sigh.

anyway i'm blogging somewhere else.
(: tell you when you all ask (:

xoxo cornelia

2010-01-11T04:41:00.000-08:00

hi world this is michelle here because..
CORNELIA WHY YOU NEVER POST HUH!!

okay to all the dead souls reading this,
IT'S A BRAND NEW YEAR (after 11 days) SO LIVE A NEW LIFE WITHOUT HAVING REGRETS!
to cornelia and everyone taking O's this year, jiayou and mug hard this year to enjoy your fruits of labour after the papers.
my terror will be when im y6 and taking A's 2 years later hahah.

cornyyy i miss you so muchhhh go out soonsoonsoon one day maybe after your O's or something :)
love you lots and believe you can do anything! :)

-love, michelle

2009-12-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

HELLO FROM SAN FRANCISO!
its night here. we arrived in the evening, 5th dec!
had to go thru lotsa custom to get out. kinda troublesome, but thats what keep a country save right(:

its really nice there.
love feeling the feeling of being in the usa.
nice weather and good shopping.

hongkong wasn't exactly great, the air was kinda polluted, hazy and smoky.
wasnt feeling well so yeah, kinda ruined.
victoria peak was nice but really hazy.
hongkong isn't as cheap as i though.

love the feeling of not being in Singapore.
like the stuff in singapore stay there and i'm going away with a free nice mind.
the crews not as close as the past few ones, but they are NICE(:

going overseas with PREENA kinda fun but most of the time i feel as if i'm the little sister!
don't exactlt care i guess. no hope getting upsets with these stuff.
plus the pros overrule the cons.
oh well.
highlight the fact, I HATE AH!
oh well
ne more year.

xo,
cornelia
good night.
<3 USA

2009-11-25T06:54:00.000-08:00

been really long since a post.
starting to lose interest in the online socializing, allowing others to know about what you're going on-stuff.
so ya the blog gonna be dead till i found a great strong passion in me to blog.
maybe shall make it a picture blog.
just pictures.
no idea.
meanwhile,
enjoy the school hols,or try to with the crap.

xoxo
cornelia.

2009-10-24T09:37:00.000-07:00

its mistake to left out the plans for my holidays.

I can't wait to travel again.
even malaysia.
at least its away from all the hustle and bustle of my life.
i can't wait to shop at hongkong and just walk around san francisco.
can't wait to leave this place.
can't wait to see new places and meet new people.
can't wait to fly on a plane again.
oh yay!!!!

xoxo
cornelia.

i don't understand,
why i'm allowing myself to become like that.
to compete against a stupid game.

find myself again.

2009-10-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

i can't wait to travel.
to escape from this place and explore the world freely.
i wanna fly again.

hols please come quick!
before troubles start piling up again.

xoxo
cornelia

triumph in the skies rocks!
FULL TIME(:
haha

2009-10-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

its been really long since i blogged.
but i had my reasons for it.
exams and post exams stuff.
wonderful dramas shows movies books and little home projects been keeping me busy.
gossip girl, sisterhood of the travelling pants /2, paranoid park , flash forward and now my all time favourite triumph in the skies!
gossip girl is great! really hot people hot place interesting story line and all(:
sisterhood of travelling pants has great storyline too about great friendship-- its really touching. + there's blake lively from GG(:
paranoid park haven't exactly completed the movie yet. the way the story is depicted it quite cool + taylor monsen from GG (:
flash forward one of those deep thinking shows. love the plot and the main idea of the story. too bad its till esp 4...
and triumph in the skies, what can i say, the best chinese drama ever! and you're never get bored of it(: beautiful place okay people and pretty PLANES.

anyway i'm excited for the hols.
although i know i'm gonna be filled with stuff again like cough cough cough
but oh well at least i'm assured of at least 2 weeks of non existance in singapore(: which is good enough for me(:
and a chance onboard my favourite commerical jet--B747!
lotsa trips to malaysia(: hongkong(: san franisco(:
hopefully the plans don't change.
and i'm never letting school stuff get in the way of the plans(:

i guess i shall continue my shows tmr.
kinda tired now.
first long day tmr.
and i'm not gonna describe it here...cos i doubt you wanna know..
oh well 5 more months?(: YEAH!

xoxo,
cornelia

2009-10-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

michelle here :D
just here to say good luck to all who're having eoys right now!
and corny i miss you loads and loads we have lots to catch up!

holidays :)

-love, michelle

2009-09-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

i admit i'm REALLY screwed up.
studies AGAIN!
roaarrr
i can't seem to concentrate on anything.
and a little shake to my perfect plan just pisses me off.
i know its wrong and all but .... arghh nvm. enough about htis topic.
I WILL STUDY LATER.cross my heart, to myself.

anyway the thing that made me commit that sinful crime of not mugging is
GOSSIP GIRL
i know wrong time of the year to craze over a stupid drama.
but there just something that makes me go on and go for hours in front of the computer.
the fact that this show isn't a happy ending and all the stupid mistake each character makes make this show so REAL.
my life is obviously not like their but those issues depicted in the show is always presence in everyone's life.
and thats what makes life cruel, REALLY CRUEL.

i need major repacking of my table at the end of the year.
i just can't seem to study there!
and going out to study doesn't help either. i can't stand being surrounded by people when studying.
roar.

xo
cornelia

2009-09-19T04:04:00.000-07:00

its really cold today, in fact for many days.
but i'm not complaining cos i rather cold then hot humid and hazy.

woke up early today for amath remedial
i have to admit its useful, much more then amath lessons.
finally understood polynomials and the quad. eqn. shall finah all my amth work today even if that means i got to burn midnight oil.
guess yong isn't that bad. but its really fun laughing at him.
oh well.

i wasted my time, yet again, sleeping and watching meaningless tele.
oh oh oh oh oh finished gossip girl season 1 yesterday, illegally. nvm doubt my sisters would ever find out.
its a really great show, love it.
although its all bitchy and stuff, thats the fun part right? YEAH
haha

oh well i have no more idea on what else to type.
so it would be this till now..

XOXO,
cornelia

Bi Tc H --> Bismuth Technetium Hydride

2009-09-13T02:06:00.000-07:00

i shall do a review on my hols.
since its the last day today.

its kinda wasted.
i slacked too much.
now i have half of the hw not done and i'm still here.
for the very fact that i don't feel like doing it.
ROAARR~
i didn't manage to do any revision too
which was awfully needed cos of my terrible results.
roarrrr
i reallly need to start work but i can't force myself to.
so the one week spent like that.
on the other hand, did some nice stuff during this hols.
completed flight leader's course, which was really boring and all.
but its about planes and aviation and all so i guess its worth it.
watched speed and angels, wonderful show.
watch coraline.
watched sister's keeper and read half of the book.
slacked alot- watched useless little kids cartoon, nice nice childhood.
visited east coast drive thur, place i was dying to go.
guess thats all
oh wait
AND I PACKED MY TABLE. nice nice table. and cleaned my planes. and organised my books.
shall pack my file later.

thats all all i guess...
i slept night for 3 days and it feels GREAT!
made me had alot of weird dreams.

well, i shall go catch up with gossip girl, for one esp and then i shall go back to trying to study.

XOXO,
cornelia

i shall be back on friday only.(:
trying to mug here.

2009-09-09T07:50:00.000-07:00

its burning,literally.
the weather like crazy, the fact that you're 1 degree from the equator doesn't really feels good.
the equator to me, the burning part is not enjoyable. i rather 4 seasons.
why am i harping on this topic?

anyway........ i'm hot. blow fan blow.
say i was saying, ANYWAY. flight's leader course ended today.
and thus today was test day.
wasn't as easy as i though. most that was tested wasn't in the powerpoints at all.
made at least 6 mistakes):
hopefully i would pass. don't wanna waste anymore time repeating the course. sec 3 already):
but i did learn stuff from the stuff.
no.1 aircraft take off and land INTO THE WIND. i kinda knew it but understood the concept wrongly.glad i cleared the cloudy misconception in my mind.
no.2 the rsaf logo on the fuselage of the plane is a black merlion to help in camouflaging.
(its quite irony that the merlion is a nation symbol but it actually came from france as an unwanted piece of art.. according to ben tan)
can't really remember the rest. its something to do with the maneuvers. shall go google about it later.
p/s I WANT FLIGHT SIM NOW NOW NOW.
but i guess i should get it after EOY so i can focus on studying.
but i REALLY wanna start using in NOW NOW NOW.
oh and thus we finished early today about 2+
reached home and slept.i know i'm sinful.

anyway in the evening i watched speed and angels.
really GREAT documentary. really inspiring.
discovered that speed and angels like a signal/message.
i though it was a made-up creative title. haha
i shall go try all rollar coasters the next time i visit the theme park. kinda cool to be in 7 G s or something like that.

HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!
HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!
HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!

mummy and daddy 's going to malaysia tmr w/o us.
all thanks to SOMEONE. i had to stay in singapore.
they'll be back on sat.
i think i'll survive(: haha. i'm put in charge by my mum. how wonderful.
then after they return, they will be going to NEW ZEALAND. w/o us once more.
so they will be gone by a total of 8 days? yeah.
i wanna go new zealand. lord of the rings filming land. the great scenery.
hope they enjoy themselves!

XOXO
cornelia
off to bed soon.

2009-09-08T07:54:00.000-07:00

In high school, Nicole Malachowski pursued her goal to be a U.S. Air Force fighter pilot. She soloed at sixteen and she became the first female Thunderbird F-16 pilot. “I’m just a girl with a dream who surrounded myself with positive people. If you don’t worry about labels and don’t worry about what people say you can or can’t do, I promise you’ll enjoy the ride.”

www.flygirlfly.com

thanks. i'm not gonna doubt about stuff anymore.
i shall do all that i want to do.
i shall not care about anything else.
that is what i wanna do.
FLY A JET.

xoxo cornelia

i wanna watch speed and angels.
shall go find the tape or something(:

2009-09-05T22:32:00.000-07:00

i'm sick.
its getting better but my throat still hurts quite a lot.

i skipped SYFC yesterday
kinda regretful.
wasted my time at home sleeping and movie marathon-ing
and tried to copy part of my JAC course into my new notebook(:
haha
anyway 25.5 hours of lecture for the next 3 days.
0830-1700.
actually i didn't realised it was till 1700.
cos if its beber talking the whole time while, i think i would just die.
oh well, it be fun(:

watched Coraline and My Sister's Keeper(:
tried to watch The Proposal but quality really lousy so decided to skip that.

got to do researching on the aviation notes.
also i think i shall redo the scrapbook(:
shall start at 3(:

XOXO,
cornelia

2009-08-31T23:31:00.000-07:00

Its a school holiday today.
with cloudy dull freezing weather.
this should be a perfect relaxing day.

but NO
i'm stuck with lots lots holiday
and an un-checked to do list.
can't blame anyone can i,
i should have done everything earlier right?
to add on,
i have no idea how to do amath test and i think i lost my emath ws.
also i don't have chinese writing paper and left my guide book at school.
and to think of it.
this should be the exam period.
sign
a heavy one.

on a lighter note,
i got my hands on a great book!
MY SISTER'S KEEPER BY JODI PICOULT
i'm done with about half the book already.
i can hardly put in down
its just too good!
i like the way she writes from the point of view of different characters.
although some of the characters are rather boring and i'm not exactly interested in their life.
but anna's point of view is just heartwarming,touching and yet really saddening.
i really look up to her because if i was born in the world with only 1 purpose - to save my sibling's life,i really don't know what crazy thing i'll do.
can't wait to watch the movie.

about movies,
ORPHAN is out already!!!
so watched bandslam yesterday which is worth my 6 bucks but only 6 bucks.
like the whole musical theme, the songs are a thumbs-up
the storyline is cliched but accepted due to little twists here and there.
overall i enjoyed the movie.
gonna tune and try playing my guitar later after allowing it to rot in the dusty corner of my room.
but that is if i got time.

my experiment yesterday was kinda successful.
i guess they are unreliable and i shall distance myself for a bit.
till i definitely know what they are thinking.
but now, i have him.

xoxo,
cornelia

2009-08-30T03:17:00.000-07:00

MY FREAKING YOUNGER SIS HAS MORE LIFE THEN I DO.

see i should have when to a girl's school.

2009-08-30T03:02:00.000-07:00

everytime i feel really down,
i end up arguing with my mind.
lets all treat life as a dream, a nightmare.

facebook is lagging like crazy
I MEANT REALLY CRAZY
i can't open pages, etc , etc
FREAK

my mum is laughing hysterically at some stupid korean programme.
i can't find the website to watch my movies.
its somewhere in my history but i can't find it
its FREEZING today
i wanna take out my nice mickey white sheep wool coat to wear.

looked through the photo albums today.
next time i take pictures overseas, i'm gonna smile all i want and not care if i look good a not.
thats pretty innocent(:

i want flight simulator!!!

oh well.
i'm gonna fly away sooner of later

xoxo,
cornelia

2009-08-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

WARNING:STUPID POST AHEAD.
i warned you already.

firstly, i don't understand how people get so materialistic and all.
i admit I'm materialistic too, but i don't think i actually care of how i look all the time.
unglam moments somehow seems the happiest.
secondly, authority REALLY sucks.
evidence just keeps appearing again and again
every and anywhere.
the whole concept is just so ironic.
thirdly, something beber said makes sense FINALLY(the rest was just really crap, and he is no funny at all, except us to laugh at his jokes, and make me answer some question i obviously was correct)
okay he said, its okay to not be a pilot even, there are many other aviation roles.
all the is important is that you learn the stuff ( summarized version, made it more... HIGH CLASS)
and yes i wanna know every and any thing about aviation.
the rest will come later(:
and yes FEMALES ARE GREAT PILOTS TOO
freak!
fourthly, i am officially damndamn SEXIST.
i meant who was the one who started it first. not the females, the MALES.
so can't blame me.
the stuff, the actions of most of them are just so crapped
told you i should have went to a GIRLS SCHOOL!
should have when to st nicks.. with janice, haha
fifthly, i'm really starting to lose trust and faith with the people around me.
i keep telling myself that everyone has good and bad points.
try to focus on the good. but time and time again the bad appears more then the good.
people follow the social 'rule' to step up the popularity ladder.
people are so different when they are alone with you and as a group..
there's clearly actions done just to fit in.
maybe i'm like that too. and maybe thats why i really hate myself.
anyway, and the people you trust so much makes you crumble right down.
no support,no encourage, no limits.
even strangers or people i don't actually talk to make me feel so much better.
i don't know who is lying and who is telling the truth.
i just wanna be alone, locked in an empty white room and paint pictures with my mind without people judging how good my picture look.
i wanna learn to cherish everything in my life yet i'm not sure if its worth cherishing.
i just wanna hear what i really feel and know what i think is correct to me.
i wanna be always confident of myself and not try my best to be confident and then be pulled down forcefully but others.
but then again in a society like this, i just wanna lose my mind and blurly go through life
so things that will hurt won't hurt anymore.
i shall just study REALLY hard and get into somewhere far away.
maybe an overseas scholarship.
to be away from the life i'm in and start anew.

see i told you its a stupid post.
its like me arguing with myself.

--cornelia
p/s this post is not directed to anyone.
anything that you , yes YOU think is just your conscience acting up.

2009-08-29T05:27:00.000-07:00

haha mixue, i don't have the book but i'm interested in the movie too
haha..
but first i wanna complete my sister's keeper and then watch the movie...

i have no mood to post now
just glad the horrible week is over
and looking forward to a better one

taking part in the amazing flying machine..
hope this time we do really well

--cornelia

MICHELLE'S POST

2009-08-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

didnt post here for so long aww.
im so used to livejournal blogger seems almost weird haha.
looking forward to 31st so 6a can finally meet up again :)
geog test next week and i havent started studying!
screwed.
im gonna read and watch the times traveller's wife, cornelia do you have the book??
:D

-michelle

2009-08-23T04:29:00.000-07:00

yes yes yes
cornelia is sinful.
she wasted her whole sunday to eating sleeping and is here posting.
freak.

anyway
obs reflection on wed.
chem test on tues.
physic test on wed.
emath test on thurs.
how do i freaking complete that thing.
maybe i should be bad and hand up on friday instead.
okay i don't care already.

anyway,
i just love watching all those aviation videos.
pretty graceful PLANES.
learnt about turbulence, lighting and the best area to sit in a plane today.
haha
wanna learn too
go to
www.askcaptainlim.com
really great site.

okay off to study chem real soon.
and emath test gonna be really hard.
FREAK.

xoxo.
cornelia

2009-08-22T08:18:00.000-07:00

an eventful week i had.
and its finally a sat(:
i'm happy.

syfc today was a blast.
haha, mainly cos i was really high and i have crazy mates.
and and i flew 2 flights today, which is a WOW(:
then stayed back with janice to do homework in the lounge which was really productive.
completed all my hw except emath 9.2
we're gonna build wooden electric planes next week(:

anyway was researching and watch aviation videos.
came across the Concorde.
its really magnificent.
a single wing plane, going at twice the speed of sound.
i wanna fly in one and i wanna wanna fly one.
its a really difficult plane to fly according to youtube viewers.
anyway it stop its service due to accident, noise pollution and high costs.
i think its because it could only carry a limited number of passengers and it was expensive to maintain, etc?
the engineering is like the future and yet its the past, what a pity.
imagine going to the viewing mall at airport and seeing a Concorde take off. that would be like seeing... erm .. i don't know, MAGIC?
anyway i discovered the models we use for flying kinda similar to the design of the concorde?single wing?
anyway
CONCORDE, QUEEN OF THE SKIES(:

about my eventful week
had band 4/5 of the week
that reminds me i got to research..
never mind.
had a few tests.
and a really horrible incident i don't wanna talk about.
i guess yous ahs life will not be complete if you leave ahs without a green form.
so a green form will show our true identity as an ahs student.
WOW! i love my school SO SO much.

i'll be back next week
trying to use the computer as little as possible.
gonna try the next mask.

you know you love me
XOXO,
CORNELIA
<3 Concorde

2009-08-14T07:00:00.000-07:00

i think i shall shall another blog after the exams.
but for now its here and i'm still loving it(:

firstly, we got 'scolded' by like 3 plus teachers for the same thing..
kinda guilty especially when i know i got to study.
i'm gonna have study sessions everyday except fridays(: for myself.
i doubt i'm gonna live to it but i'll try my best.
its kinda scary just thinking about it.
everyone else studying like crazy and i'm here ... arghhh
now going out tmr doesn't seem like a good idea, i guess i'll just get my sis present and come back home.
secondly, i REALLY need to exercise!
its like the only way to release that i can think of.
but then again, i am really lazy to make my way all the way down to my sport club which is kinda out of the way and i got to walk right in.
plus all the scary adults are there too, them seeing a person not as old as them just makes them think that i'm there to create trouble. real scary.
also its time consuming and i can't find a correct time to go there.
i wanna go at night!! but i got to make my way home in the dark):
plus i'm suppose to study instead of wasting time there...):
thirdly,i can't play my music.
arghh el camino real is just killing me.
all the running notes and weird time signatures.
i don't have the time to practice.
everyone at different sides is asking for something that would favour that side.
school/class---> my studies are still the most important and i should not place anything above it.
cca---> not much time till the break so must must practice more more more.
i just wanna play my music well...
oh well everyone has 24 hours a day and since others can manage i can't complain.
but sometimes i just can't...
oh just shut up cornelia.

i don't know what i'm typing.
like nini like to put it, verbal diarrhea.

you know you love me
XOXO
cornelia

2009-08-13T06:22:00.000-07:00

today was a horrible day!
but after i came home all seems well (:
hopefully it stays that way!

should i talk about my bad day?
nah... its bad after all, shall refrain from remembering it too...
just got to say, i guess whatever he said was true, kinda guilty.
guess all will be better after today and all those fun lessons will come back again.

don't like it when someone peeps at what i do on the net.
i just had to swallow a gross vitamin pill. ewww

anyway i got to think of birthday presents for my elder sis.
she says she want a huge bunny
but where am i gonna find that?
was thinking of sandals and sneakers or a scarf?
but i'm afraid she doesn't like it.
money? but it isn't quite sincere right?
arghhh
shall ask my mum to get her a bunny cake too.
angie the choice has lotsa yummy chocolate cake favours i think she will like.
chocolate fudge cake? yeah...

i need to start MUGGING!
seeing everyone so study conscience and with high expectation of their results..
i look at myself i feel really lousy..
arghh
i guess i should start dating myself more for study sessions.
guess having myself as company is really good(:

you know you love me
XOXO
cornelia

2009-08-12T06:29:00.000-07:00

mixue's new blog--lj
drowningfishes.livejournal.com
go check it out!
maybe i should make another blog too.. or i could stick to this
kinda lazy...
blueaeroplane--that could be my new site name(:

anyway facebook really lagging
so it the whole firefox.. maybe i should switch to safari
then again it may be mio's fault...
i can't think nowadays..
i'm getting really slacky
( posting is evidence)
and EOY is just in 5 weeks
somehow i wished i was a successful nerd!
i nee to start study sessions! but my days are so packed...
wrong choices..

oh and i REALLY need a holiday
or more like
I WANT A HOLIDAY!
mummy going with daddy to korea i think..
her life long dream or something..
all those korean dramas.
i wanna travel alone
in a country with romantic scenery, nice cool weather
somehow being alone seems like the best company.
arghhh

MOOD SWINGS SUCKS!
can it just end!

off to study 3 chapters of ting xie
i can do it(:

you know you love me
XOXO
cornelia

oh ya...
ruien on an afforable mag
8 DAYS!
if i'm left with 2 bucks at the end of the week i shall go get it(:

2009-08-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

HI PLEASE NOTE THAT MICHELLE HAS MOVED TO
www.drowningfishes.livejournal.com
THANKS.

2009-08-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

GUIDES COOKIES FOR SALE @ 10 BUCKS PER TIN!
CHOCO CREAM, CHOCO MINT, CHOCO CORNFLAKES (NEWWWW)
GRAB ONE (OR MORE) TIN FROM MICHELLE NOW!
:D

2009-08-09T08:28:00.000-07:00

national day :)
im taking a break from intense proposal thinking and breaking dawn hah.

just here to say,
i love Singapore.
i love its green trees, mrts, sbs, reservoirs, NEWater, reclaimed land, beautiful flag, clean city, nice food, constantly upgrading shopping centres and buildings, national anthem, pledge, safety, security, living together peacefully with all race and religion.
this is probably one of those days i dont feel racist, nor make any racist jokes/ comments.
'never take peace in Singapore for granted, we all play a part'.
this makes sense, really.
for the sake of my home i should stop saying racistical jokes and thinking its nobody's business since im in school and dunman high is sort of a chinese school.
i might have mentioned this before, but whatever im gonna say it again.
yes studies are freaking stressful in Singapore,
the amount of homework teachers load on us,
the competition between students (heck, even parents) and working adults no doubt pisses you off sometimes.
but for a person who has studied in Taiwan and Philippines before,
Singapore is a darn lot better.
somehow, Taiwan schools may be more warm, people there are nice and friendly, i made immensely good friends (who i have lost touch with), they have veryvery good food, good shopping, and basically, gives a more relaxed life than Singapore.
or so it seems.
i was there, and i hated school excursions.
i'd rather stay at home than to go out to theme parks with my classmates.
i cried on the phone, telling my mum i didnt want to go, and she was so bewildered.
honestly, so am i.
chinese in Taiwan school is super demanding, (i get my mum to read and summarise the books for me whenever i need to do book reviews) i completely didnt understand science, nor anything else because everything is taught in chinese.
i excel in english over there,
cos they're learning alphabets.
ok back to main point.
so i simply refused to go, because..
it just didnt feel right.
like they are just substituted friends for all my friends in Singapore.
like they are temporary, something i know i can't hold on to forever,
so i didnt even want to let myself be that emotionally attached to them.
i treated them as part of class/ school life, a necessity, but would prefer something else if i have the choice.
selfish brat i was.
but its something you cant understand if you're not in my shoes.
i missed Singapore so much, during the time i was in Taiwan.
i missed the sunny bright sun shining through my windows every morning,
the green leaves-filled trees on my way home,
the smell of roti prata, chicken rice, nasi lemak, western food drifting into my corridor from my neighbours' houses.
i missed my friends, those who used the most adorable singlish i've ever known.
those who complained with me about not having enough recess time,
classmates who grumble about long queues in canteens,
friends who call me over the phone to ask anxiously about what homework we have.

cant remember much of Philippines, i was 2 okay.
but all the memories i have, including photos and all,
are all perceived as dark murky lives of me, dad and mum.
like our smiles all ain't real, simple posed for the camera.
but i remembered Taiwan life so clearly.
i remembered how much more i appreciated Singapore after i came back, during primary 3.
my real friends, real family, all belong in Singapore.
looking from where Singapore was 50 years back,
how can anyone not be proud of what Singapore has become?!
especially Singaporeans!
how can you complain about how the government controls and manipulates our mind and forces us to do things and taking away our rights and all those nonsense!
LOOK WHERE WE ARE NOW.
people, esp Singaporeans, should really look past all those unsatisfying moments and see what the government did for us.
actually at this point im only thinking of Lee Kwan Yew and Lee Hsien Long, but ohwell think of whichever mp you want.
i respect both of them, more so for Lee Kwan Yew.
i can rant about how determined and wise and far-sighted he is and you probably wouldnt be interested in what i have to say so i shant continue.
what i want to say is:
how many countries have you seen, whose political figure/ government has been so uncorrupted and clean, do his best for his country just out of love and pride?
no momentary self gains, not of fame, not of forced responsibility,
but out of pure love.
i really cant imagine the day when both of them are gone.
every year i'd watch ndp live on tv, and every year my parents and i will sigh about how our most capable and respectable leaders are aging. so swiftly.

i wonder how Singapore will be like in another 50 years :)
maybe then i'll be watching ndp live (still) with my working children and husband and i'll be thinking back on the days when im still a secondary school student.
then again, our tvs may all be in 3d functions and everything will be so realistic my children wouldn't believe when i say tvs at my time when i was a student is a flat 2dimensional screen.

crap its midnight and i have tuition at 9am tmr :(
all the talk about taiwan life is making me nostalgic :(
even though its not my home, i still miss all the relaxing ambience of most cafes, and the darn cheap set meals with my fav bubble milk tea.
touring there is really great too :)

-michelle

2009-08-08T21:43:00.000-07:00

700 posts.

happy national day guys!
how nice and red..

watch gossip girl
i'm already starting to regret making gossip girl a sister show..
because if it wasn't i probably already finished the series..
oh just shut up cornelia.

anyway GI JOE is a really nice shows
i'm really starting to fall in love with action movies.
first transformers then gi joe
the plot really nice and complex
watching it in grand cathay makes it even better
the sound quality and huge screen.
all those fighting and gun shots were really good!
totally worth my 6 bucks.
another show with cool jets.
not as many as transformers but still really cool.

i wanna watch orphan
i wanna watch coraline
i wanna watch my sister's keepers
if i go watch during the weekdays that would cost me 6 x 3 = 18
and if i go watch on a weekend that would cost me 10 x 3 = 30
how how wonderful
now i feel really rich.. yeah right
):

i wanna go to the gym
i wanna go giant and get grapeizer and appleizer
i wannna go ikea to get fabric and look at all those cool furnitures
i wanna go marine bay to soak in the festive mood
but i'm just rotting at home doing practically nothing on the computer.
how wonderful.
at least tmr i'm going out, hopefully.
i shall finish all my hw..i guess
or hit to the gym later at 4...
can't find anyone who wanna go with me though):
arghhh

you know you love me
XOXO
cornelia

signing off like that kinda fun(:

2009-08-07T06:39:00.000-07:00

THIS IS FREAKING INGENIUS PLEASE WATCH IM BEGGING YOU!

:D

-michelle

2009-08-07T05:41:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder if i lie to myself more than i know.
when i say i don't, do i really not?
or do i simply say no, and hope for whatever it is i denied to come true quickly,
so that i won't be lying?
what a bad place to tell the truth michelle :(
blogs aint private; i ought to know.

walked around a little with cherisse at bugis today.
she's obsessed over notebooks and other blank cute books.
how lucky she is to be obsessed over something non-living.
we completed whatever our aim was at bugis, and came home.
reading eclipse for the idk how many times in my room for 2 hours plus until my mum calls me out for dinner.
was supposed to meet her colleagues and her for dinner somewhere near my place,
but i bathed and got really comfortable at home so i didnt feel like going out.
asked for takeaway and i could sense her disappointment in rejecting a meal with her again :(
not filial michelle, i shall go breakfast and market with her tmr morning,
since i think my dad is too sick to go out.
and coughing as he is right now,
with the doctor at the A&E department doc treating him as h1n1 patient,
he shouldnt take chances infecting other people as well.
(not that he's confirmed h1n1, dont worry im still safe to be with.)
death tolls are rising, yet everything is relaxing.
how contradictory can this get?!
almost all flu patients are treated with h1n1 medicine,
(cos test swab for the virus is too ex and the govt doesnt plan on spending that much money on everyone who coughs and sneezes..)
more people are dying, national day coming (ok this probably doesnt relate well to my point but i just wanna mention it)
and wow,
suddenly we're allowed to join back desks, resume cca (no complaints here i'd wanted it since beginning of this term), have flag raising thrice a week at parade sq and take temperature once per day..

geog chinese and maths on my priority now,
and im still blogging.
im always saying this and really,
i'll bet most dunmanians are using their mugging/ homeworking time to blog too :)
my sister is home she announced her presence to the whole world by scremaing 'I AM HOMEEEEE!'
okay she's really adorable.
this shall be my very abrupt ending bye.

-michelle

2009-08-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

we played with puzzles today(:
amath linear law puzzles -.-
but it was still amusing and fun.

there was bird dropping on my table.
it was gross, it really gross
eunice made the first move and helped me put the wet tissue over it..
the bird even brought in a stick from its nest, oh nice.
becky and yanny we laughing, at me, as usual
there was bird dropping all over the windows too.
i shall close the windows the next time(:
we chiong hw and found out there was assembly, wonderful wonderful wonderful
we were late , obviously cos of the high level we are at.
i discovered the huge extend of me complaining about the school and teachers these days.
its kinda fun actually(:
talked about orphan, which is a really nice show but its nc16 which i would find a way to see it(:
its really fun in class these days.
becky and yanny crazy laughter and thoughts.
oh and there is not so amazing race for geog tmr(: only thing i'm looking forward to(:
i love geog(:
i spent 45 mins here trying to play pet society.
it didn't worked.
i wasted my 45 mins.
pet society better give me a 1000 coins to make up for this wait!

was flipping thru the ikea catalog yesterday.
i discovered how much i like interior design.
can't wait to design my very own house when i grow up(:
mummy says i can be an architect.
but cornelia rather be a pilot(: (: (:

you know you love me
XOXO
cornelia

2009-08-04T01:33:00.000-07:00

the bell rings, signaling i need to post.

firstly, today is a school holiday!
achievement day and we have hbl but i'm not gonna care about it(:
so i slacked the day off with a sick body
but somehow i'm waiting for it to really become sick, like have a fever..
or else there'e no point going to the doctors
i never seem to be able to have a fever...

secondly, more people i know are down with H1N1
yes, H1N1 the FLU!
debbie get well real real real soon cos i would miss you when you skip SYFC!!!
we shall get high high high and camwhore again okay!!
and bong's kids...
i think i would miss bong for the week la!! her physic lessons
cos i doubt zhen can teach... opps
i really dislike new teachers...
get well soon

thirdly, i really really need to hit my books!
i NEED TO START STUDYING!!!
i shall not comment on this any further.

i feel like making a new cold milkshake for myself...

--corny

2009-08-03T08:23:00.001-07:00

i got inspired by mr teo's talk this afternoon.
about how your attitude changes everything.
i told myself i'd change, and not have that heck care attitude so much.
i got home at 9, feeling super drained, and typed out my LA essay.
my la essay is still not completed and i don't know whether its dued tmr.
i did not complete my chem wksht by myself.
so much for changing of attitudes.
but im really tired.
i can't absorb anything right now cos my brain is malfunctioning.
i need to grasp the mole concept asap, or im screwed.
i need time to sit down and calm my heart and brain and soul and mind and figure out the entire knot of unintelligible information.
my dad is really sick :(
i have chem test this week, and maths test on thurs.
i was half asleep during tuition today.
that causes me to lsot focus and only when im on my way home i realise today's the last tuition i have before CT and i forgot to clarify anything i don't know.
i suddenly remembered what mr teo said about taking subject passes for granted.
i am one of them, for overall grades at least.
i am not a hardworking person, not a smart person, yet i have no life.
i must change myself.

Lord i need You.

-michelle

2009-08-01T03:22:00.000-07:00

somehow i think adrenaline hasnt kicked into my veins yet.
yesterday was, longing i suppose.
with me and yiting trying to look at teoee esther and fiona as much as possible,
listen and absorb their laughters and voices for the last time,
imprinting their images with plaits and guides shirts for the last time perhaps.
wasnt it just now that i stepped into guides for the first time?
the smiling faces of teooee esther fiona as they saw me,
trying their best to help me love guides the way they do,
to ignite the passion within me.
the times when i wanted to quit,
but the thought of leaving or disappointing them and all my patrol mates made it unbearable for me to leave.
so i stayed.
i stayed, till today, when my life's essentiality is now guides.
wasnt it just now atc07 came, i had shien qianting kimberly and usan as my sec2s.
the first time i didnt have teoee esther fiona by my side,
but nevertheless, atc was so memorable.
then, new juniors came in,
and pdp08 came.
seeing how teoee became our new patrol leader and thinking how weird it is for gina not to be there anymore.
and suddenly, the coy seems so empty.
then atc08 came,
and the first time leading juniors in prep work,
and all the crazy fun times we had.
then teoee esther fiona were telling p2 sec3s about coj and pltc.
and yes, the events changed us.
just when i got fully used to seeing the coy whole again with 4 levels,
they had to go.

it unavoidable, of course.
but still feels shocking to realise we will never get to consult them for anything anymore.
no more 'its okay, later we confirm with teooee/esther/fiona again.'
somehow, its now 'its okay, later we can confirm with yiting/crystabelle' from p2 juniors.
no more leading with reassurance that the sec4s will fix everything i screwed up,
but instead, leading with confidence that i wont screw up,
that im now responsible for fixing things others screwed up,
like how i did before.
they left with great hopes on us.
i can only hope we dont disappoint them.

all i can say now is,
i will give my all for guides.
and,
I REALLY LOVE YOU SEC4S.

really love 41st batch, the most fun and nice and crazy people i've met :) not everyone is in the pic though.)

once an Orchidite, always an Orchidite.

i figured it is possible to love 2 patrols as equally and as much after all.

guides. one for all and all for one.

-michelle

2009-07-30T05:32:00.000-07:00

my chinese is really atrocious.
it's so terrible i cant speak a full sentence of it without stuttering or adding english in it.
to think dunman high is a chinese, or billingual school.
i must really embarrass the school to death :(

-
memories last forever.
what else can i say?

-michelle

2009-07-29T06:02:00.000-07:00

somehow when i feel really bad, those nice flying creatures never fail to cheer me up.
aeroplanes are such wonderful creations (:
combined with those fluffy clouds and pretty blue skies, i wonder if i can survive without these beautiful works of nature
i highly doubt so.

i keep knocking on stuff and leaving little scratches on my skin. this makes me feel so retarded (shhh)
i also think i'm vaccinated against flu, no wonder i never get sick no matter how hard i try.. (opps)
i also love cookie monster, he keeps me entertained while i'm bored(:

i wanna get a hamster too.
but i can't decide on a breed and colour.
i wanna be completely sure and ready for a hamster(:
but i can't wait to beautify my little friend's cage already.
white cage, blue wheel,blue house, blue food bowl, blue bedding and a little welcome sign(:
maybe i should start designing his cage in my sketchbk, it be fun(:

the end of today made me really pissed.
i was looking forward to fast food day so much
then some ugly purple vegetable just came in and stated i'm down for remedial
also that means i got to see him for extra hours.
really pissing
i'm so gonna ace all my amath test to get out of it!
thanks all for hearing me curse and swear and bitch about him
throwing my anger at yanny was comforting though i don't mean it yanny(:

sometimes when people know you as a bright happy child
you got to stay as that forever
which means you get to hide and pretend even if you are not
they won't believe that you are upset and try to comfort you.
sometimes i wish i was the problem child of the family.

you know you love me,
XOXO,
CORNELIA

2009-07-28T06:20:00.000-07:00

i really need to catch up with blogging.

it feels good slacking.
apparently, now isn't peak period ( according to your truly ) and thus its time to slack
i got no homework today.
and i only got emath test on thurs which i'll study... TMR(:

okay actually i wanted to play pet society but its down again..
everytime i use the computer i can't think of a thing to do except blogging and facebook-ing which isn't really entertaining...

let me post about today..
which isn't very excited.
oh i slept for like 9 hours and studied for literature in the morning(:
but i was still tired at school. good work cornelia!
but sitting with becky and yanny will not make you tired from not sleeping, etc
it will make your facial muscles tired from all the laughing
its just so crazy i have to cover my face with that huge piece of paper so that i would not let others see the look on my face when i laugh so hard my tummy hurts and i start tearing.
anyway today lessons were BORING.
the wind was crazy too, hot cold cold hot... really irritating
i wanted to ask ms farah if integrity was pronounced integrity or inti-geriti
eunice said it was pronounced inti-geriti
i just wanted to make sure.
but i didn't get a chance to ask her... the next lesson maybe(:
oh and the spirits pulled all my pencil case " intestines" out
(which are the pens and pencils, etc.
and my pencil case was thrown under the chair
how SCARY...ben tan should have told us the horror story..
then have band...
some rehearsal for national day
it was HOT
i was obviously hotter then JJ
ended the school day feeling rather irritated by i-don't-know-what. oh well
then came home..TUITION

toodles
XOXO, cornelia.
you know you love me.
(in the gossip girl way)

2009-07-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

im feeling guilty about alot of things right now.
1. shouting at my sis ytd/ today 5.15am cos she woke me up and ask me to on the lights cos its 'too dark for her to sleep'. i stomped to on the bed-lamp and shouted at her, before turning my back against her and totally ignoring her.
2. not studying for bio test any sooner even though i knew long ago there's gonna be bio test this week
3. therefore not being able to revise of chem test in time too, which i'll panic and feel guilty soon after
4. commenting mean, but joking-and-not-serious comments on zachery's crush-o-meter. usually he simply suans me back with relish, but now he's so nice and does not retail with a single word of self-defense, letting my comment hurt him so deeply im actually feeling guilty. 6A people will know how unusual this is, cos both of us are always at loggerheads at each other, but now he took my comment so seriously he deleted that application thing and all comments.
5. thinking of using the memory charm to confuse ms chua about our bio test on thurs, so she can change it to friday, then i can pon tuition to study for it.
6. having so much things to complete yet im still here blogging.
7. procrastinating for chinese so much so that now poor yiting has to complete the taohuayuan video by thurs.
8. not reading the Bible every night like i promised myself to, instead reading harry potters and vampires.

ok this is really random, but im starting to admire jay chou quite alot :)

give blood, date a cullen. that's what my badge says.
off to mug bio.

-michelle

edit.
okay zach's not angry at me anymore one guilt-free, checked :)

2009-07-27T07:17:00.000-07:00

every monday i'll reach home at 9pm and feel so freaking tired.
its either i take public transport home, and its takes me one hour plus,
or i take my parents car, but eat out, and reach home one hour plus later too.

ACE, taohuayuan, and all those tasks i claim unimportant are choking me up now :(
God's way of telling me to stop procrastinating and stop thinking everything's unimportant i suppose.
seeing that ace was given 2 weeks ago, and taohuayuan was given 3 weeks ago.
and i was so free back then thinking i needed 'stress and deadlines for motivation.'
slap myself ah damn it.
not to mention geog essay chinese compo study bio test.
ohwell.
im complaining both when i have things to and when i dont,
and its really annoying to hear someone contradict herself so i shall stop ranting now.

at least tuition doesnt require alot of brain work.
we listened to teacher serene's plan to move house;
in which jiajian and his sis so enthusiastically encouraged her to do so cos then they could just walk there.
hah.
and today claire's a happy girl, again :)
she's so cute and sweet no wonder koala loves her so much aww :)
ok enough of that.
let me declare myself to save yiting from whoever that's so evily feeding her love potion!
but then again,
its a matter of choice.
if you rather stay in this situation to get daily motivation i'd have no objections.
the rhyme was entirely unintentional, really.
okay great i made myself laugh.

it wouldn't feel right without you.
all of you.

-michelle

2009-07-26T02:45:00.000-07:00

day out with xintian claire junyi was great ytd :)
xintian and junyi watched harry potter,
while claire and i mugged at starbucks.
claire's a weird girl, this is how she responds to studying:
(over the phone)
me: hello, claire?
claire: eh mcihelle! you at marina sq now right, what you gonna do?
me: study bio loh, test next week. -sigh- no life can.
claire: eh sounds so fun. i wanna come. what else you doing?
me: um, complete maths assignments i suppose..
claire: EH SO FUN IM COMING NOW. bye!

literally, i was laughing so much hahaha.
apparently, studying is so much fun huh :)
obviously, being the very careless person that i am, i left my bio textbook in school so i couldnt mug properly after all.
tragically, i got cheated by our bookshop's '10 year series'. there's only 2008's paper inside and the rest are just a few pathetic questions on different topics. not even all the answers are provided, tsk.
ironically, im still here typing crap when there're so much work to be done.

and my dear yiting,
you're under a strong spell that only you can get away from it.
love potion strengthens over time y'know,
just that i cant find a bezoar for you.
let memories just be left as memories.

-michelle

2009-07-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

i'm finally here to blog
*HUGE SMILE*

anyway i'm watch harry potter and the order of phoenix now
and yes, i have yet to watch it!
don't ask why
its taking forever to load
and youtube has became all legal and nice so i don't get to watch the full move there
the legal prog in my computer isn't working..
sometimes i just really hate technology

i have a pile of hw that i have yet to complete
and literature test on tuesday that i have to study today

my weekend:
i had syfc on sat (:
didn't had to wake up bright and early cos my dad was sending me there(:
it was pretty boring though.. a bunch of safely talks..
but it was really good seeing all the girls again!(:
there's a new girl but i haven't talked to her yet... next week i guess..
after that when to hilton hotel for my sisters' scholarship award thingy..
boring stuff but i managed to entertained myself
there was also good food(:
then i came home and slept
sometimes i don't realize how tired i am till i actually fall into deep sleep for hours.

i wish i had better programmes for my weekends..
oh and i can't wait for the IR to be up.. the theme park sounds really exciting(:
toodles all
i doubt i'll be back soon..

--corny

2009-07-24T07:22:00.001-07:00

seems like so mcuh has to be done during the weekends :(
complete maths assignment (so i cant consult my tuition teacher next mon for those idk), gai3 ci2 for chinese proj, chinese compo, geog essay which idk when its dued, find chinese news articles, revise and attepmt bio 10-year-series questions, buy files, tuition homework.
my posts are getting so boring cos its all about school work.
bet nobody read the above chunk of useless info; who wants to see a whole list of homework waiting for them while blog-hopping!
and it further makes them feel guilty for not doing work, but kay-pohing people's lives too, haha.

im really sleepy now but i feel bad for sleeping cos there are so much things to be done and i dont feel like doing anything so im staying awake in the hopes of having motivation to do work later.
this is utter nonsense.

-

'have you ever wondered, why must we pia? because we love P2, and we want it to be sud, to be seh.'
P2 has been the greatest thing that happened to me.
and me getting into P5 will be the greatest thing that will happen to them.
haha, joking.

-michelle

2009-07-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

geog CA tmr..
i wanna do well cos i can score in geog and i really like geog(:
but Cornelia so so tired now...
hopefully later I'll feel more energized *BIG SMILE*

today, spent the morning playing with becky
after recess yanny got high from the chem lab,
so i got high with yanny
amath was crazy...
yong tau foo kept looking to my side, as if i failed my test):
and becky and yanny just when crazy-- i was suffering in mid their madness
haha
sectionals,
gwen had food poisoning..
weileng took ..
as usual it was crazy
she made the sec 1 run!! thats so last time..haha
after that i got really tired..
i want my prestige back!!!

i'm drained now.
i shall implemented a new studying method today-mindmapping
hopefully it works..
i want something nice to drink!

--corny

2009-07-22T06:49:00.000-07:00

nobody's blogging much nowadays, been hopping around and everyone seems so dead.
the 'test is coming' atmosphere around?
i feel quite free, which scares me.
no assignments whatsoever, and i dont usually do those little tasks teachers set for us,
eg. write down 3 questions from macbeth to ask LA teacher, answer some questions from geog slides (okay i did a few ques, but got bored. and how can teachers assume all students have internet connection in their house to download the slides?! simply ridiculous.)
so now im tryna complete tuition hw.
which reminds me, last thursday's tuition was one of the noisest i've ever attended.
kids can be so noisy at times, really distracting.
even playing with ringtones/ music during class!
got irritated, but obviously im not in the position to scream 'hey *(#^%&%@ man can you turn down the freaking music and shut up?!'
and my tuition teacher wasnt feeling well so she couldnt keep on lecturing them. :(
get well soon teacher serene you're the greatest and most inspiring teacher i've ever met :D

and i think im really sucked into harry potter's world damn :(
been thinking about the characters, storyline, quotes and everything whenever im awake.
even resort to drawing a crude picture of a scene i imagined it to be in deathly hallows during lecture today.
guess what makes it really amazing is that i've watched the movie before starting reading the entire series of the book,
so i always visualise what's happening in the book in relation to the cast and scenes (eg, hogwarts, great hall) and the effect is so real.
cant remember whether i've mentioned it before, but whatever.
i wanna own books 1-5.
my mum claimed that im crazy when i requested that from her.
i even offered that the gift of 5 books can be splitted into this years christmas present and next year birthday present.
she ignored me.
okay so im gonna find (legal) means to get those books.
and to download the movies too, maybe.
thoroughly and totally obsessed now.
get over it soon michelle too much obsession is not good for health cos it causes significant distress to my own body.

oh, y'know the sorting hat takes your choices into accounts while sorting you.
even though it thought harry would perform great in slytherin,
he chose to be in gryffindor, and that's what he got.
but then again,
harry's great at almost everything. :D
brave, quick-witted, loyal, cunning (in a good, or doesnt-harm-others-greatly way)
ginny's so luck to have married him.
their children must be so honoured that their parents are such great people.
though its amusing how their children all have the same name as their parents/ siblings/ teachers.
eg, lily potter, james potter, albus severus potter (all harry and ginny's children), fred weasley (george and angelina's son).

i have great guides company. they never fail to cheer me up :)
happy porter.

-michelle

2009-07-21T01:31:00.000-07:00

apologies for not blogging for ages.
its tuesday, second day of the week and i am already looking forward to the weekends.
everything is starting to pile on..
hw , tests and you know what..

i love the flying thing becky and i hanged at the window(:
tmr gonna bring more coloured paper and ribbons
when the wind blows it flies really high
and attracts attentions
haha

today my first early day of the week and i reached home at 3.45 +
cos i forgot to bring my ezlink card i had to walk home instead.
and school ended so late...
luckily tmr's school ending real early due to listening olevels
but i got tuition on tuesdays and wednesdays so yaaaa...
tuition...

i feel like sleeping already..

--corny

2009-07-20T08:41:00.001-07:00

i really shouldnt be blogging now.
not when there's chinese and LA test tmr (i think.)
and the thing is i could have slept earlier if i hadnt been reading harry potter every 5 mins, or less, while attempting to research on george bush for ace.
and i told myself i must sleep early today cos for the whole day in school i've felt so very tired i could barely keep my eyes open,
had tuition till 7.30pm just now and reached home just before 9.

was wondering why on earth im not flooded with homework,
then i realise im supposed to be revising school work in free time.
not reading harry potter or researching on it.
so many extra days given for macbeth quiz which should have been given last friday;
yet i haven't even finished reading the book.
i oughta be ashamed of myself.
to lift my own spirits, however, i memorised the su yus fully :D
something i've never gotten the motivation to do before.
(regardless of chengyu or whatnot.)
okay, im gonna put my afternoon into full (and good, i hope) use by staying in school to revise work.
i need maths and bio 10 year series.
great.
mugging, life with intense excitement.
bye.

-michelle

2009-07-18T03:38:00.000-07:00

just here to say i've watched harry potter and the half blood prince with eugenia chingee and tammy just now :D
movie was ok, seeing that they cut out a lot of scenes from the book but couldnt have been prevented cos thousands of stuff are covered in the book.
ohwell ,time limit.
loved the effects though, and their acting.
and i fully appreciated how good looking tom felton is in this show.
he acts well, too.
AIYAH ACTUALLY ALL I WANTED TO CONVEY IS PEOPLE GO READ THE SERIES NOWNOWNOW!
YOU WONT REGRET IT!
trust me.
'harry, trust me.' -dumbledore.

ok whatever.
off to watch ice age 3 again with family,
seeing that my mum's paying for my ticket, why not? :)

-michelle

2009-07-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

YES I FINALLY FOUND WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR!

She [J.K. Rowling] said that Harry became an Auror for the Ministry of Magic, and was later appointed head of the department. He also kept Sirius's motorcycle, which Arthur Weasley repaired for him, but he can no longer speak Parseltongue after the destruction of Voldemort's soul fragment within him. She also said that Ginny Weasley played for the Holyhead Harpies Quidditch team for a time, then left to establish a family with Harry, and later became the lead Quidditch correspondent for the Daily Prophet. Ron Weasley worked at George's store for a time, Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes, and then joined Harry as an Auror. Hermione found her parents in Australia, and removed the memory modification charm she had put on them for safety. Initially, she worked for the Ministry of Magic in the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures, greatly improving life for house elves. She later moved to the Department of Magical Law Enforcement and assisted in eradicating oppressive, pro-pureblood laws. She was also the only member of the trio to go back and complete her seventh year at Hogwarts. Rowling then went on to explain that Dumbledore's relationship with Gellert Grindelwald extended beyond mere friendship; indeed, Rowling has revealed that "Dumbledore is gay, actually",[60] and harboured romantic feelings for Grindelwald.[61] Next, Rowling revealed the fate of Voldemort. After his death, he was forced to exist in the stunted form Harry witnessed in the King's Cross limbo, as his crimes were too severe for him to become a ghost.

Rowling also explained the fates of several secondary characters, starting with the Weasleys. George Weasley continued his successful joke shop. George married fellow Quidditch player Angelina Johnson and had two children: a son named Fred, in memory of his late twin brother, and a daughter, Roxanne. Next, Rowling proceeded to explain Luna Lovegood's future, saying that she searched the world for odd and unique creatures. She eventually married Rolf, a grandson of the famed naturalist Newt Scamander,[59] writer of Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them. They have twins called Lorcan and Lysander. Her father's publication, The Quibbler, has returned to its usual condition of "advanced lunacy" and is appreciated for its unintentional humour.

Rowling then gave briefer histories on some more of the minor characters, as follows. Draco Malfoy's wife, Astoria (or Asteria), was the younger sister of his Slytherin classmate Daphne Greengrass. Percy Weasley married a woman named Audrey and had two daughters, named Molly and Lucy. Firenze was welcomed back into his herd, who finally acknowledged the virtue of his pro-human leanings. Dolores Umbridge was arrested, interrogated, and imprisoned for crimes against Muggle-borns. Cho Chang went on to marry a Muggle.[62] Viktor Krum found love in his native Bulgaria.[63] Neville Longbottom became professor of Herbology at Hogwarts and married Hannah Abbott, who became the landlady of the Leaky Cauldron.[64] Bill and Fleur Weasley had a total of three children, a younger son named Louis, and two daughters, named Dominique and Victoire.

Rowling also revealed further transformations in the wider wizarding world as follows. Kingsley Shacklebolt became the permanent Minister of Magic, with Percy Weasley working under him as a high official. Among the reforms introduced by Shacklebolt, Azkaban no longer used Dementors. Harry, Ron, and Hermione were also instrumental in reforming the Ministry.[7] At Hogwarts, Slytherin House became more diluted and no longer held the title as the pure-blood bastion it once was, although its dark reputation lingered.[7] Voldemort's jinx on the Defence Against the Dark Arts position was broken with his death, and there was a permanent Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher stated. Harry also is said to come to the Defence Against the Dark Arts class to lecture several times a year.[58] Lastly, Rowling says that a portrait of Snape, who briefly served as Hogwarts Headmaster, had not appeared in the headmaster's office, as he had abandoned his post. Harry then ensures the addition of Snape's portrait, and publicly revealed Snape's true allegiance.

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they all turned out to be fantastic people huh?
Harry potter giving lectures in defence against the dark arts lessons.
lectures seem a little mild though, he created history!
in that sense; the legendary battle between voldermort and harry!
how can anyone forget that :)
ok i better go before i start ranting again.

-michelle

2009-07-16T05:56:00.000-07:00

i cant escape from the world of harry potter :(
that's sort of the amazing thing about harry potter books.
i read half blood prince a few days ago, wanting to be fully prepared when i watch the movie so i can purely enjoy the wonderful special effects and how the characters actually look like everyone described in the book etc.
then i got so engrossed i immediately pulled out deathly hallows to reread,
and now i've finished reading, im at a loss of what to do next.
the first time i read finish deathly hallows i went shocked.
maybe because i cant believe harry's adventures would end,
and mainly, i think, because i will never read about his adventures again, ever.
its this attraction-drawing effect of her books.
now i just want to go back to philosophers stone again and re read the entire series crazy me.
helps me think harry potter's adventures never end, you see :)
and i think book 8 is never gonna come out, sigh.
i really love the series, so real, so convincing.
and now i still cant get enough of the harry-ginny family thing i decided to google it up, and this is something amusing i saw:
(a more 'proper' ending to harry potter)
voldemort: Dumbledore didnt tell you who your real father is?
harry: what are you talking about?
voldemort: harry, im your father!
harry: nooooo!!!
both harry and voldemort then blast each other to death with their magic spells.

gotten from
HAHAHA.
ridiculous aint it, sounds almost like mediacorp dramas. ohwell.
i wonder what harry's profession is though,
auror? but whats the point when voldermort's already gone?
or maybe he inherited a large amount of money from his dad so he neednt work.
but doesnt that make his life extremely boring.
i'd love to think that he's teaching defense against the dark arts at hogwarts :)
ron can be working in the ministry.
neville's teaching herbology in hogwarts (mentioned in deathly hallows)
Hermione and ginny can be housewives, or not to waste their talents, Hermione can be a healer, ginny can be teaching quidditch for enrichment!
(who cares whether there's such things its up to my imagination!)
what else.
oh yea, harry might be headmaster of hogwarts too.
draco malfoy can be head of slytherin, and he can be trusted to work in hogwarts seeing he wasnt at cruel as the rest of the death eaters to kill dumbledore and other people.
oh and i remembered Hermione had the crazy obsession over house elves right?
so she and ginny could set up their S.P.E.W thing :)
cool eh, then they'll all be living, seemingly, happily ever after.
BUT I WANT MORE.
there should be a book about harry and ron's children lives in hogwarts.
more mischiefs, more adventures.
tell us more in detail about what happened after voldermort died,
the period of 19 years, what happened in detail.
or maybe life of Sirius black and James potter.
there's a prequel, quite interesting but not finished.
something about James and Sirius performing magic in front of muggle policemen.
read more at

im hopelessly living in my own fantasy world someone help me get back into reality or im gonna suffer from serious depression that harry potter's series ended and there are no more sequels and there's no such people nor school nor happenings.

elder wand, horcruxes, chamber of secrets, tom riddle, azkaban, polyjuice potion, severus snape, triwizard tournament, order of phoenix, mirror or erised, flying motorcycles, ministry of magic, half blood prince, quidditch, patronuses, gringrotts, hogsmeade, leaky cauldron, diagon alley...
i've a feeling im gonna dream all bout harry potter tonight.

exactly how i pictured them to be, in GOF, in gryffindor's common room. totally awesome.
i sound like a lil' kid ranting about her fairytale, but harry potter's really.. indescribable. unbelievably cool.
forgive me for my rantings :)

-michelle

2009-07-15T05:01:00.000-07:00

its really good that homework is at its minimum recently(:
lessons have been rather fun(:
school has been good(:

i wanna watch movie,harry potter.
but the prices are so high! and all good seats are like taken up already.
i'm so broke. and some stupid cheapo stall scammed me of my money! the packet obviously said 1.50 and he charged me 3.05 cos the place it was put at stated 3.05.
i'm so tired of getting scammed already, even in what seems impossible environment to get scam--school, i got scammed there already. how great!

my eyes feel so dry.
feels as if the lens of my eye gonna drop out.
and the soothing lotion / washing eye liquid doesn't seem to work.
arghhhhhhhh

i don't know what to type...

--corny

2009-07-14T05:11:00.000-07:00

yay there's geog tmr(:
and yanny , becky and i are still together...
it would be yet another fun day.

sitting here waiting for becky to send me chem and thinking of something happy to write.
this sounds so dumb.

i really confused.
i try to forget but i can't.
why only me?
its really getting childish.
sign.

--corny

2009-07-14T03:47:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging these few days cos i've been living in my world of harry potter in my free time :)
reading the books are like watching what really happened right before your eyes.
i really admire J.K. Rowling, her books are so alive its not mere words and description.
but who wants to hear me rant about how awesome it is when you can just read for yourself :)

anyway. reality.
chem graph.
i really dont see why we cant just draw the graph on a damn piece of graph paper!
isnt is simpler and more straight to the point?
rather than searching high and low (ok fine my class treasurer's very nice and gave us the link for graph plotting on my class blog, but thats not the point) and wasting so much time producing a piece of work that most students are unsure of whether they did it correctly or not.
and i really suck at following instructions so my end product looks quite.. plain and compressed.
im gonna do my mole concept paper now.
i lost my chinese wksht that for once, i felt like doing it.
maths ct tmr, and im doing chem.
remember to bring macbeth tmr.

-michelle

2009-07-13T06:05:00.000-07:00

the pictures are nice and love-ful.
no matter how spastic and small my eyes look.
and these doesn't come easy.
friendship.

oh school.
sometimes i just feel like bombing you up.
while sometimes you seem like a nice place to go, with all the nice people.
you make me feel so mixed up.
but i like it that becky is now a monkey on the geog textbook showing off her waxed armpits.
and how eunice brain burned in an overnight fever and she's now retarded.
and how oly is suspected of having H1N1 without muscle aches with her squeaky voice.
and how yanny is all sadist and random i kinda like her as my new partner.
and how i enjoy being around them with a huge smile on my face and surrounded by laughter always.

i still miss obs you know.
for some reason it seems like a perfect thing to go to now, especially with all my friends.

and and bong talked about a hydrogen bomb today.
ben tan talked about global warming.
i like them both.
they speed up the rate of the dying for earth.
if i drop a hydrogen bomb, even if it doesn't kill the whole world, i think global warming will take over.
and all will end in a pile of dust.

i still got amath to do.
there is amath test on friday.
and luckily no common test tmr(:
chinese compres always come with touching stories, they make me guilty for not doing them.

when will this war end?
can we just settle it with peacefully?

my lucky day is sunday.

-corny

2009-07-11T06:45:00.001-07:00

i have about 15 mins to type out this post and uplaod pics on fb cos im gonna catch harry potter part 2 later at 10.

awesome day out with corny today :)
although both my feet has horrible blisters now because i wore my heels and walked for 7 hours straight. :(
i didnt wanna be so short beside her while cam whoring, you see.
haha.
went to marina sq, watched ice age 3, ate,shopped, walked to singapore river, spastic-ed, saw little parachute men for ndp rehearsal, walked back, shopped more, cam whored more and home :)
on the way home i passed by cotton on and couldnt resist buying clothes again, damn.
i mean, its sale come on!
so after all the i've spent on non-essential items,
i ate a $1.10 dinner and went home.
(10mins to part 2)

so great seeing cornelia chan yan ping after so mega long!
last time we met was.. 1 year ago?
(not counting the time we met at mrt station haha)
and she embarrassed me in the theatre, i still remember!
this time she didnt embarrass me, good :D
ice age 3 was funnay, though i think it speaks more of parenthood than whatever else it was trying to convey.
because i dont think parenthood suits the theme of a kids cartoon,
but whatever.
we could hear little kids laughing and squealing with delight.
my favourite sound :)
so adorable to hear lil' kids squeal awww.

ok 7 mins left, some pics for visual enhancements:

pardon our spastic-ness.
ok now im gonna watch harry potter :)
because its really nice and has super good effects and good actors and actresses.
unlike twilight, tsk.

-michelle

2009-07-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

oh my freaking goodness im dying of utter stoning.
im so desperate for company now damn.
asked desperately around via msn sms calling to see who's free to go out with me tmr.
but no one is, currently :(
my parents are going to climb some hill tmr evening i think.
which i really dont wanna go.
not only i think i'll end up ruining their day (or vice versa, because it has happened so many times already),
i really dont think i have anything to talk to with the people they're going with.
I.NEED.SOMEBODY.TO.WATCH.A.MOVIE.WITH.ME.OR.AT.LEAST.SHOP.
shit damn why am i feeling such utter hollownessssssssss.
the kind of, i have no purpose in life mood.
which is really bad.

im really going crazy with boredom can.
like shit, i've been spending my whole damn week at home.
now weekends at home too.
at least im meeting cryst and yiting on sunday :)
i'll end up going out with myself and being reduced to a pathetic figure.
not having proper guides is really killing me.
im not exaggerating my hysterical state ok.
im almost going hysterical with boredom and no direction in life-ness.
i shall continue looking for people who are as freaking life-less as me.
bye.

-michelle

EDIT.
ok idk whether people place the edited part on top or below the post but anyway.
i havent met up with corny for hell of a long time.
shall go sms her now :)
'bestest friends forever'.

2009-07-10T05:28:00.001-07:00

today finally a Friday.
and then the weekends, finally a break from school.

you have no idea how screwed my life is now.
i wish i could lock myself in any empty room all alone,
i guess being alone now would be the best thing to do.
i really wanna go see planes.
how nice if there is SYFC tmr,
friends,laughter and AEROPLANES!
and away from all the nonsense i have gathered from my life.
i really feel like choosing somewhere far far away where no one knows me and start all over again.
and then again maybe all i need is a HOLIDAY!

about today,
today was a really short day compared to the other days i'm gonna have.
the lessons today we really slacky and nothing special happened.
but i guess the week ended well, with english as last lesson.
becky and me was laughing at yanny's cat story and how she should have ended it.
my essay was really long compared to the others.like 3 times longer.
and i was the last to get my essay back, i though someone would be tearing it into pieces.. haha
but that kind soul returned my essay with pretty good marks and funny comments.
something to summary my essay: my best friend, we are best friends forever!! MIXUE(:
then on the way home wennie and yanny entertained me with their funny/weird replys!
i came home feeling i should not be home and felt asleep on the hard floor.
i woke up with back aches.

i have no idea what to do now.
i'm bored and lost.

--corny

2009-07-10T03:02:00.000-07:00

i wanted to type today was a waste of time.
then i realised its not entirely so.
i stoned for so long before i came up with the above sentence.
today's a friday.
know what it means?
im supposed to be jihe ing now,
maybe jie san soon.
sinigng taps.
listening for announcements.
sweating and stinking like swine.
maybe telling cassandra in front of me to kao long.
joking with claire beside me about something random.
bao shu-ing.

BUT NO.
hey, there's h1n1 so we should definitely have no mass gathering.
no cca, no life, no nothing.
dunman high makes students lifeless.
(though i still love dhs, not saying i hate it)
but guides brings me back to life :)
total stoning now.
im not used to staying at home on a beautiful friday.
SIGH.
(as in, i really sighed just now. :( )
im dreading next mon, no assembly means more chemistry.
its not fun anymore, im not playing.
can we please stop :(

i wanna meet cryst and yiting tmr.
i cannot stand staying at home and stoning :(
talking to them makes me feel kinda relieved.
at least im not the only one obsessed.
though i think im still the most severe case.
sigh. (i sighed again, literally. )

i miss the good ol' times.
rumours break friendships y'know. don't do it.
that was meant to be a general advice. not directed to anyone, really.

-michelle

2009-07-09T07:55:00.000-07:00

i finally when to the airport today.
with becky and eunice.
they made my facial muscles ache.
didn't get to see my planes..
but the airport seems save to enter so i'll have a another chance to go i guess.
i really wanna fly away to another place.
i don't know about the future but now i'll never be sick of traveling even if i travel for half of the month.

lotsa h/w today.
chiong-ed ss project. i can't find my thumbdrive): thanks jacinth!!
now i got to chiong amath and emath. i love math, only when i know how to do them(:
tmr is friday(: a friday i'm so looking forward to. i'm already planning what to do!!!(:
i shall watch the movies on mio and maybe head down to cheers for nachos. i wanna buy that carebear!!
oh and i'm so broke): bought my aunt a birthday present!!! her birthday is tmr...
thanks nini and becky for helping me choose!!

THE WEEK IS ENDING!!! ALL CHEERS!!!

--CORNY

2009-07-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

damn it yes finally idmi is over.
no more unspoken out loud worry anymore :)
because of the past few days of emptiness and hollowness from boredom and lifelessness,
went a little shopping with yiting jam and claire at bugis in the afternoon.
didnt manage to buy anything much, so i went to amk hub to shop alone.
i lead a lonely life aww :(
haha nah, too early for tuition anyway and i figured i need to make up for my unwanted idmi anxiety for the past few days.
i had self control k, didnt wanna be late for tuition.
(cos outta 10 time, i'll be late for 7times, on time for 2 times, and be early for one time. my new year resolution is not to be late for tuition leh, i still remember.)
and in the end i reached so early i slept downstairs my teacher's block -.-

i need a proper shopping date someday.
which makes me wonder how guys spend their leisure time on entertainment.
i mean, isnt shopping the best way of spending time when you're bored?
imagine going out with a group of guy friends, stoning at the mrt station, going somewhere to eat, arcade, maybe movie, at night go clubbing or pub, then home you go.
BORING AND UNPRODUCTIVE.

btw, claire's a happy girl today :D
she should know why :)

last night before sleeping i was dreaming of going taiwan again, just that it's with friends this time :)
imagine how awesome that's gonna be.

-michelle

2009-07-08T07:49:00.001-07:00

he is, was, and will forever be legend.
king of pop, he'll live in our hearts.
several ironic points in this post:
1. i only started listening to his songs when he's dead. somehow this feels, again, that a person is more famous only after he dies. or maybe im just suaku.
2. i told myself im going on hiatus for idmi, not that im doing super alot for idmi, but still, i was so close to keeping my promise to myself until now. (remembered last year eoys i also wanted to go on hiatus but didnt succeed.)
3. its idmi presentaion tmr and here i am posting about michael jackson.

this shall not be a mourning post, cos im too tired to think of suitable words,
and iw as never a big/ mega loyal fan of his so who am i to post about his death?
oh well either way can i say he looks like willy wonka?
skin colour, eccentric behaviour and all.
mj's amusement park can be ww's choco factory.
his pet monkey can be ww's tiny workers (whose name i forgot) in his choco factory.
maybe mj didnt have time to give out 5 free tickets for people to visit his.. private studio or something before he passed away.
a little amusement for the mourners, dont be offended :)
he's amazing, totally.
live on, king of pop.

-michelle

2009-07-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

i have this sudden urge to wanting to go for a holiday.
i don't mind not holiday too. i just wanna get out of the situation i'm in.
i wanna go overseas.
this is dumb. almost every single month i post about how i want a holiday.
but i really want it.
singapore is just so packed, so stressful, so fast.
sometimes i wish i lived in the mountains, this i can go swim in the river, grow vegetables and catch insects.

i feel awful now.

--corny

2009-07-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

sorry.i'm feeling really lousy these days.
i badly need to go the airport once again, to watch those pretty stuff take off.
but I can't, cos of h1n1.

the first day of term3 was a blast!
having yanny as your partner and becky in front of you isn't a quiet issue.
i love the people surrounding me.haha
the only time i felt bored today was in chinese and obviously the reason is with the teacher and the subject.
now i got to fill in the the undone hw ):
oh oh and in sel we played this trust game.
damn funny, i have becky's leg at my thighs and had to grab on to oly and nini the whole time.pretty cool huh? not. haha
oh and i got these super unglam shots of the guys team, but someone lost her cable):
next time, when i find it.
obs meeting was naggy and ranty are usual
and in the end we had to pay, knew the school wasn't that kind!

off to do more work.
-corny
i seriously hope this tides over soon.

2009-07-06T03:29:00.000-07:00

whats the difference of watching shows online and on tele.
whats the problem watching shows once in a while.
whats the problem not studying all the time.
whats the problem of using entertainment for a bigger purpose like being togther.
whats the problem of not being all obedient and angelic all the time.
seriously i'm a human being too, i don't wanna be good all the time
i hate being good, cos i feel so plastic
i just want everything to go well
for you to understand and not brag about some other kid you DON'T KNOW and say how good and nice and proud you are of her.
sometimes i just really hate you.
sometimes i just wanna run away
sometimes i don't even think i should be born.
sometimes i doubt you even love me.

--corny

2009-07-06T00:10:00.000-07:00

i wanna organise my media so badly
i wanna post pictures up on facebook so badly
and you know what
i lost my transfer cable!
freak freak freak.

--corny

2009-07-05T22:19:00.000-07:00

HAPPY YOUTH DAY ALL
lets all celebrate by finishing all undone work
thats the best way to celebrate especially when it represents the significant of being a youth.
brilliant.

on a better note.
i had a wonderful evening last night.(:
i didn't go to some romantic candlelight dinner or anything.
i spent my evening in front of the computer with the unhealthy dinner in my hands
and together with both my sisters we watched gossip girl!
i know it doesn't sound great but its really meaningful for me.
and gossip girl has become a sister show, which means- no watching unless all of us are present.
then we decided to be good and go pack our tables and bathe.
in the end we ended up choosing an outfit for my elder sis
and we tried out outfits from our wardrobes, played with our hair.
my sisters started bitching about their school and it was fun to hear all the stuff ( how nice i WASN'T in ah )
then we talked about the opposite sex and the funny stuff.
by the end of the night, we packed our tables, bathed and everything
and was prepared to watch just one more episode of gossip girl cos it would be our late in the week.
then mummy came in and took the laptop away.
we were tired anyway, shall not spoil our mood.
i guess its good to have sisters after all(:
hope we remain like that forever(:
than again i wish i had a little brother, he can sit by my parents door and warn us when they come check on us.

now i got to finish book report
p/s i haven't touched the book yet
and organize my media
and then attempt to draw an aeroplane on my shoes.
YAY

once again,
HAPPY YOUTH DAY.
hope you're enjoy it more then i do.
but i guess i celebrated mine last evening already.

--corny

2009-07-05T00:35:00.000-07:00

doing maths gives me a sense of satisfication :)
i must do well in maths cos i cant let my tuition teacher down!
AH. stress/ motivation.
idmi filming tmr, i think i suck as a camerawoman.
so now im planning my shots and angles hoping it won't be screwed tmr.
-
harry potter series is one of the movies that makes me believe that is really what happened in the book.
-what is michelle talking about?-
i mean,
it is the kind of movie which i watched,
and will believe things like:
harry potter=daniel radcliffe,
hogwarts= the majestic castle they used to film
black forest= the ulu setting they used with trees all around.
and when i read the books again,
i will fantasise the people (actors and actresses) doing whatever is described in the book, even if it's not filmed yet/ that part isn't filmed.
at least the movie and actors/actresses/ setting does justice to the books lah.
i cant help but compare to twilight,
WHICH WAS REALLY EPIC FAIL.
cheap setting, lousy actors, horrible effects etc.
who in the right mind would wanna watch new moon urgh.
(okay people who are in love with the story will, i get it -.- )
i wanna watch harry potter and the half blood prince soon :D
amazing effects and acting's up to (my) standard at least :)

oh, and i finally finished chinese.
shall remember to hand them up :)

-michelle

2009-07-03T23:38:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS CAPS DAY
it actually isn't but i want it to be today
so i shall continue my post in caps

THERE WASN'T FLYING TODAY
WHICH WAS KINDA SAD.. ITS BEEN A MONTH WITHOUT FLYING..
BUT I BET IT WOULD BE SLACK ANYWAY
SO I SLEPT IN TODAY

BUT THE PLAN WASN'T TO SLEEP IN
IT WAS TO GO THE THE GYM AND SWIM TODAY
BUT NONE OF US COULD WAKE UP
SO MAYBE TMR!
I GUESS I HAVE FOUND MY SECRET DESIRE TO LOVE SPORTS..
HAHA

OH AND I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETE ELEARNING
WHILE.. THE ELEARNING I PLAN TO DO!
FINALLY SENT BEN TAN MY GEOG WEBQUEST(:
WOO HOO 3 CHEERS..
NOW ALL I GOT TO DO IS CHINESE COMPO AND BOOK REVIEW
AND THE REST I DON'T CARE(:
WOO HOO
ACTUALLY I DON'T WANNA CARE ABOUT CHINESE TOO
STUPID BOWL OF DUST!
ARGHHH

DOWNLOADED A WHOLE LOT OF NICE SONGS YESTERDAY
IT FEELS GOOD TO DOWNLOAD SONGS LEGALLY(:
WOO HOO

-CORNY

HAPPY CAPS DAY!

2009-07-03T22:54:00.000-07:00

i had a horrible dream last night.
dreamt that my junior died, and i was notified of her death by her rumoured boyfriend, who was driving.
illogical dream yes, but i cant control what i dream about.
it was really scary.
because it was so sudden, yet in my dream, nobody seemed to be in a serious state of shock except for me, and i was feeling even more scared because of the wrong response people was giving towards her death.
-

can someone relate to me the sars experience they have in sg back in 03?
i was in taiwan then.
the horribly chaotic period of time where the govt was busy with cheating money outta folks and counting the billions he owned.
and its really unstable there,
because since the govt wasnt doing anything about the epidemic,
authorities started taking matters in their own hands,
and thats usually the start of even worse chaos.
authorities who want money so they let you off from quarantine from possible sars virus,
doctors who dont know whats going on so they just quarantine every single patient who has a cough,
hospital staffs who dont give a damn about the virus and just go on poking every patient with the same needle.
and because i experienced the living fear of uncontrolled-sars-spreading society,
i really appreciate what our govt is doing,
and how they're handling the situation.
even if the cases are still rising quickly.
but hey, it may be even worse if there are no regulations and stuff MOH implanted, no?

okay anyway,
despite the irrelevant points above,
my point is that since hini is gonna be serious no matter what we do about it,
must as well let us enjoy life until the situation gets almost out of control.
and we can see that now is NOT YET out of control,
because even if the school claims they are preventing the spread of virus by minimising mass gathering sessions,
eg. NO CCA ACTIVITIES, no morning assembly in parade sq, no youth day celebration, no pea for senior high students after common tests (they're gonna have ultra interesting home e-based learning. not even holidays given, mind you.)
students are still:
-going for recesses in a shared canteen
-touching the counters of shared canteen stalls
-sitting our asses on the same toilet bowl while peeing
-touching the same doors when opening them
-squeezing at least 80 people into bus 158, including holding the same railings and sitting on the same chairs
-talking to each other without the use of masks, and teachers still spit on you while teaching because it is simply unavoidable (for some)
-touching and taking worksheets teachers give to the first row, and the rest just hafta pass it back (poor last student receiving the combined germs of all those at the front)
-so much more that im too lazy to type out

IF THE SITUATION GETS REALLY SERIOUS, THIS IS WHAT THE ABOVE POINTS WILL BE CHANGED TOO:
- (first 4 points) school stops
- (bus 158 squashing theory) stop idmi because going to school for consultation still require us to take public transport. even if you take private car you still have to step onto school's ground that may be infested with horrible unseen hini virus
- (masks theory) you see office workers and school staffs and everyone else in sg wearing masks with their brows furrowed in worry, whether they are gonna be one of additional death case soon
-(wkshts passing theory) if school stops, there's no need to pass wkshts anymore
-overall, there will be a sense of unspoken out loud fear instilled within every singaporean

as much as i dislike idmi,
(because i think that it's really dumb and doesnt teach me anything nor give me new experiences; we've had this for the past 2 years)
its still a tradition, i suppose to have it yearly for jh students.
BUT, i feel really sad for the sh students.
i wonder if any of them will even stay at home to do 'e-based learning'.
haha.
and it's rally unfair how most schools assume all their students have internet connections at home.
not everyone has the privilege of a comp y'know.

oh and do you guys know,
the reported first case of hini death in china turned out to be fraud.
she died by being electrocuted when she was bathing.

im sorry, but it's just really laughable to see adults so hyped up about something that doesnt require such a big fuss.

i want normal school and cca to start soon ):
and i want morning assembly in parade sq. ):

-michelle

2009-07-03T07:05:00.000-07:00

i'm choosing to enjoy the last moments of my hols
and not chiong hw like crazy
so i shall complete elearning by today
and chinese tmr
that leaves a whole lot of stuff undone
but i shall not care(:

AHHHHH

i wanna go overseas
like not to malaysia
but fly somewhere
somewhere nice!!
capetown again? CAN?
ahhhhh
i don't mind india too(:

--corny

2009-07-02T20:28:00.000-07:00

i really can't do elearning
everything i on the computer
million of other sites pop up in my head
and i so rather go to those sites then do elearning.
so now i'm left with
-eng
-physic
-chem
-geog
dateline today
except geog
BENTANROCKSOHSOMUCH!2 weeks 1 ws dateline on mon!
and i'm left with these written work:
-chinese essay
-chinese book review
-amath
-emath
-physic ws
and a whole lot of projects ( which i obviously don't plan to do)

screams!!!
and i can't seem to start on my work now
and and and jj just told me mio has a whole lot of new free movies!
i wanna watch!

--corny

2009-07-02T07:14:00.000-07:00

english elearning
personal reflective writing
about my best friend.
haha mixue(:

now i'm trying to organise my thoughts
mixue tell me what your favourite thing we did together?
i like the china trip(:
i shall finish my essay by tonight(:
yay!
haha

then again i doubt so):
i hate elearning

-corny

2009-07-02T03:44:00.000-07:00

i forgot to hand in my chinese wksht again ):
but since zaq specially reminded us to do the part of the assignment i was gonna pretend i forgot that i need to do,
i shall be nice and do it, then hand in.. week 3 or something. ):
imagine if my grades get marked down just cos i keep forgetting to hand them in when i've already completed them, damn wasted.
i keep doing stupid things now.
that i do sub consciously until i realise how dumb it is.
eg, painting my fingernails with painty, leaving my phone in claire's class, writing taylor swift's love story lyrics in my notebook during chinese etc.

blog later, nidda go fetch my sis now.

-back-
and yes, i really think im looking forward to sch for some of the wrong reasons.
but whatever, i dont have time to worry about that now.
starting to worry more about tests, taking them more seriously than before.
oh this reminds me of the convo yiting and i had today.
yiting: you know during coj period i totally heck care my studies can.
me: yea me too, esp during pltc. even until now the effect also havent wear off.

maybe that short convo reminded me that my school life is still about studying,
even if guides has already taken away half my heart.
my life is so boring without guides.
i mean, you can see from my posts right.
im not the kind who talks alot about studies or lessons,
(basically cos i have limited focus span and the stuff i actually absorb during lessons will take up less than 5 sentences)
and my life revolves around guides and more guides.
sigh, h1n1 has robbed me of so much things.
and the next guides activity we have,
it'll be the end of one chapter,
beginning of the next.

-michelle

2009-07-01T08:12:00.000-07:00

a short post
before continuing with ELEARNING again
as you can sense cornelia is kinda determined to do elearn
but i seriously doubt my determination would last..haha

anyway i just finished english!!ALL CHEERS
the wonder years kinda nice, i don't mind watching it for leisure!
did a quick report and submitted it to ms farah with a nice apology
ohh cornelia so sweet
haha

now i'm gonna chiong chinese
cos tan wan yee called again! (she's damn free la)
thats 4 times in a week
and my mum kinda warned me,
she doesn't want any teachers calling home again
chinese gonna be easy i hope
just clicking randomly(:
yay!!

so i'm left with chinese compo and book review
geog elearn
physic elearn
chem elearn
math elearn + written work
and a whole lot of hols hw
thats ALOT!
ohh save me!

p/s on top of that, i haven't been well lately, gastric AGAIN!):

--corny
can't go clique outing tmr):
sadness
today's section outing wasn't exactly fun too
):

2009-07-01T04:25:00.000-07:00

i hate thursdays ):
the day when so few classes get released at 1.45 and hence i cant talk to claire and co.
the day when i hafta chiong for tuition and be so sleepy.
not having mass gathering sucks too.
flag raising in class, no assembly in hall, unable to meet people whom me and yiting wanna talk to badly.
it's not really the h1n1 that annoys me,
its the side effects, what people try to do to prevent the spread of the virus that irritates me a lot.
):

i realised i keep forgetting to hand in my chinese hw.
not that i fully finished it, but im planning to hand in half completed.
idmi starts friday.
no school again for almost a week.
sure, its slacker and theres no need for the jumping-outta-bed stress every morning,
but then where's the meaning in life!

okay now im genuinely afraid im going to school for the wrong reason.

-michelle

2009-06-30T05:54:00.000-07:00

YES YES YES!!!
SAW MIXUE TODAY~!!!!
at first i couldn't believe my eyes okay! cos i wasn't wearing my specs!!
ohhhhhhhh then i discovered how much i miss you!!! ahhhhhh
YES WE MUST MEET(:
haha
we go watch a scary movie.. no not scary...
ermm emo sad movie there! i doubt i'll be crazy then
haha
i look so dark in the photo!! haha
all thanks to obs!

elearning sucks
can't wait to go back to school
i think i kinda like school
haha
toodles..
--corny

2009-06-30T03:17:00.001-07:00

I SAW CORNELIA CHAN YAN PING AT CITY HALL STATION TODAY!
:D
she was out shopping with her mum cos AHS's having elearning week this week!
so i asked yiting to help us snap a pic :)

i look so disheveled -.-
but cant be help since its SCHOOL i just attended in the morning, haha.
was great to see her again after 792080148710 years!
ok, maybe not so much.
but the last time i met her was definitely last year!
crap, we hafta meet up SOOOOOOON ):
(though the last time we went to catch a movie she totally embarrassed me HAHA!)

since i got home quite early today, ie at 4plus.
i wanted to study bio and maybe complete my maths sums.
but i started taylor swifting songs, watching her life performances,
(you guys should watch too she's almost as awesome live as on MVs)
facebooking, blogging.
):
i wiki-ed macbeth just now though,
cos i felt guilty after mr tan's pop quiz today bout it and dillon marked my paper and asked 'michelle did you read the book?'
):
i read the first few acts, but was unable to comprehend it.
sparknotes helps, except that there're so much words in a page i get sian-ed just by looking at them.
ohwell, shall, um.
open bio digestion ppt to remind myself to study.
(i just realised today morning it's a self study topic.)

-michelle

2009-06-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

taylor swift's amazing. wonderful lyrics, tune, vid, acting.

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, let's leave this town for a little while
Oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me they're tryna tell me how to feel
this love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I'll keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

-

school today was, routined.
tired, fun, exciting, boring, interesting.
great to see the class and guides again :)

I'll be waiting, all that's left to do is run.

-michelle

2009-06-28T23:13:00.000-07:00

( i think for the next few posts i'm gonna rant about obs. so bear with me ya(: )

i miss pitching those dirty sandy wet tents.
i miss spamming insect repellent.
i miss complaning about the tough things we had to go thur.
i miss sleeping in the tent with jacinth,vanessa and clara.
i miss the rocky ground i had to sleep on.
i miss the cold jokes and stupid comments i heard.
i miss kayaking in the mangrove and walking on the soft muddy ground.
i miss trekking and hiking with those million ton backpacks.
i miss the whole process i when thur.
I MISS WASHINGTON.

but i guss life will still go on,
with those wonderful stuff in my memories.

oh ohoh
and section outing on wed!!
hope jj will go!!
and i'll get to see jingyi
hopefully she will be NICE! which i doubt so
SHHHHH
haha

ELEARNING SUCKS FULL TIME!
SHOPPING TRIP TMR WITH MUMMY!(which means complete elearning by today)
DADDY WHEN SHOPPING FOR US IN SAN FRANCISCO!!! all those wonderful brands: forever21,guess,dkny..blah blah blah!
( p/s there are like a million h1n1 cases there..) oh well
GOD WILL PROTECT DADDY(:

--corny

2009-06-28T02:36:00.000-07:00

corny makes obs sound so funnn! :D
she loves pitching tents, wanna join guides? :D

went cycling at ecp with cell group today.
weiling spammed herself with ruth's sunblock cos she didnt wanna get tanned hahaha.
anyway while walking to the bus stop..

sean: eh michelle, are you straight?
me: i like guys, if that's what you mean.
sean: really ah. but your shirt says it's hard to stay straight leh.
(we were wearing the lifeimpact shirt that says something like 'it's hard to stay straight on this slippery road. stay close to me. -God' )
me: oh. well, with Jesus anything's possible! :D
sean: HAHA, nice answer.
ruth: but im not.. :) -hugs my waist-
me: ew you're disgusting!
sean: aiyah nvm lah, i wanna go for daryl. -runs forward to hug daryl-
daryl: EEE, GO AWAY LAH!!
sean: sigh, im heartbroken he reject me just like that.
ruth&i: LOL HAHAHAH!

really hilarious.
ruth and i cycled the double one with lotsa screaming cos i was at the front.
pasir ris bike easier to cycle, there is a difference ok ):
then we exchanged places and it was much better when ruth's at the front haha!
was really slow and unstable at first,
so sean and nicholas kept coming back to see whether we were alive or not hah.
then nicholas decided he should just cycle near us in case we fall off or something.
and we kept cycling to the other lane, so from his:
'eh dont cycle to the other lane ah.'
to
'eh stay on your lane!'
to
'OEI STAY ON YOUR LANE PLEASEEEE!'
to
'YOU'RE GOING OVER TO THE OTHER LANE AGAIN!'

ruth and i were laughing like maddd!
think we cycled to somewhere near airport.
then had to cycle back again we were really tired by then O:
but it was really fun laughing with all of them,
esp when sean and yansiew and shiying couldnt stand weiling and her sunblock plus umbrella for shade they decided to steal them and run away haha!

-

i havent handed in idmi.
and i think im tanner now.
school starts tmr.
stupid hini robbed us of our chance to view the ayg torch relay race.
where is the sense of DETERMINATION and UNWILLINGNESS TO GIVE IN TO DISEASE SPIRIT?!
meeting the jie4 in the morning for talks,
lessons and assembly and falling asleep,
guides meeting after assembly,
tuition after guides meeting.
ok, i wanted my organised life back. now i got it.
routine life is so boring when i think about it.
sermon today said Satan uses business to tempt people to forsake their faith.
so teachers should stop giving so much work to students ):
once the new term starts i shall try to balance my life more properly :)
school, homework, guides, God, church, family, friends.
wow that's a lot to balance.
Lord i need your wisdom!

-michelle

2009-06-27T07:34:00.000-07:00

BACK FROM OBS!!!
my watch name is WASHINTON!!! which freaking rocks(:
yup i enjoyed myself and learnt about
it was tough but i guess the whole process was great!
i got no pictures.. maybe i shall scan in my only one tmr
and wait for the others to send me pictures(:
yay!!

in short.
1st day: trustfall,belay,pitchtents
2ndday:highelements,kayaking, new campsite
3rd day: sea expendition
4th day: land ependition
5th day: washing up
our items got wet with sea water during the expenditions.
which made it smelly,dirty and HEAVY.
we all crapped lots and bitched ALOT to get over the tough times.
flies, insects and crap.
the experience was great and i made new great friends!
GO WASHINGTON!!
haha

elearning sucks! i rather go back to school.
the school should just focus on organising stupid ayg and leave us ALONE!!!

--corny.
i don't think i fear camps anymore.
thanks obs.

2009-06-27T06:13:00.000-07:00

think i didnt post for quite long huh.
ayg ytd, surprisingly had quite a lot of stuff to do, haha.
wenxin's 'are you an athelete?' to an official who is prob in his 30s or 40s. (its asian YOUTH games, take note haha.)
chatting with the hotel's open-door-for-taxi guy while waiting for wang's mum for her vball, so we could play today.
AND SENTOSA WITH XINTIAN AND GANG* TODAY! :D
*gang= xintian claire cryst tammy sweeyee sherly me :)
met at vivo,
took part in some charity thing where they attach a device to your slipper and for every 2500 steps the device records, they donate a bag of essential items for the needy families :)
really interesting, mine dropped off on the travelator though, haha.
then off to sentosa after buying food and stuff.
went high and crazy on the way there!
then we found this spot on the beach where (quite) hot guys and babes playing vball and settled down there.
as in, we didnt choose the spot just cos they are there lah!
its just mere observation haha.
then went to vball a while and swam.
and my white shorts totally soaked through so i changed to a black pair in the sea.
interesting experience.
though not the only time i did that cos me and sherly exchanged shirts in the waters too.
her pink shirt was totally drenched and she wore my yellow singlet thinking it'll not show her bra so much,
and i wore her pink shirt cos i was wearing a tube anyway.
went reallyreally crazy and high :)
then claire sherly sweeyee and i went to wash up first,
sherly (or was it claire?) suggested we just strip and rinse off the sand at the shower area.
then i looked around and saw all other people in their bikinis anyway,
and thought we are overdressed.
hha, shant elaborate too much.

so after all of us changed and everything obviously we started to cam whore :)
jumped and jumped but only one successful one!
then took the tram and skytrain back to vivo.
really uncomfortable eating cos my ass was freezing off and it was so wet and sandy i couldnt sit on the chair properly.
rar, then sat on the ball until it dried off a little more.
ate, then rushed home with sherly cos had to look after my sis while parents go out tonight.
had a really nice talk with her on the train,
she's so.. encouraging.
haha, i really dont know how else to describe!

quite burnt now,
and oh yea i saw sec1s and 2s at bishan station/ library giving out flyer thingys for the carnival today!
so proud of them :) good work :)

now for a little colours to the all black words.. :)

advertising for fruit loops, which is super mega addictive!

looks like xintian did something obscene and claire is utterly shock to find out, hahaha!

one of the failed jump shots.

love this :)

i dont have a combined pic, maybe xintian/ claire/ sweeyee has shall go kup from them if possible :)
school's finally starting next week!
miss koh's not taking us anymore ):

-michelle

2009-06-24T22:23:00.000-07:00

right or wrong, it's all for love.
especially for chinese, we seldom admit we love someone.
when was the last time you said 'i love you' to your mum or your dad?
during special days like mother's day,
we may sing out the lyrics of a song for our mum.
on father's day, we may write on a piece of card or in an sms:
daddy i love you. happy father's day!
parents may glare at their children while saying that;
do you know that all i do is because i love you?
many times we say it in english, not chinese,
as if a changing language will make anything less awkward.
even when a couple says 'i love you' to each other everyday,
as romantic and sweet as it may be,
it all becomes mushy and embarrassing to say out loud when they become husband and wife one day.
sure, people, maybe more of westerners, who say 'i love you' to everyone everyday may not grasp the true meaning of love,
but that does not mean we should cover up our feelings!
if we do not admit we love someone, then how can that love be real?
although our actions may show our love,
like when a husband brings his wife medicine everyday when she's ill,
or when the children cries heartbrokenly when their parents are gravely sick;
by then, isn't it too late to admit our love?
-liu yong,对错都是为了爱 (roughly translated by myself.)

even though now, so many youngsters are using the term 'love' that i really wonder if they understand the true meaning behind it.
do guys use it because they think girls like it, makes themselves feel more.. special?
do they use it because everyone's saying it, the adults, the couples.
when they say love,
do they realise the power behind it?
what true love means,
how much they are willing to sacrifice for the 'love' they proclaim they have for someone?
when a woman tells everyone she loves this guy,
does she have a reason for doing so?
maybe it's his looks, his riches, his charm.
but one day she will realise once the reason is gone, so is the love.
love doesn't need reasoning;
it's the mere existence of the being itself that make you realise you are willing to give up everything for that person.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails.
-Corinthians 13:4-13

love is a really good topic to write on.
maybe i'll translate all the above in chinese for my reflection :)

-michelle

2009-06-24T04:03:00.000-07:00

idmi in school today was productive, 10x more productive than last week! :)
finished filming everything, (we refilmed everything) and editing.
though i was sleeping for more than half the time yiting edited our film.
so sorry i couldn't help! ):
then went kfc and ate with yiting, while waiting for xintian sweeyee weixin and her idmi group mates to finish editing and join us :)
cam whored and laughed till i couldn't breathe.
omg being with them never fails to make me laugh like crazyyyyy :D
sentosa this sat!
yiting cant go cos she's going m'sia ):
aww, we'll miss you!

and school is starting next mon! :)
some miss/ms tan who claims to be my new form teacher called me to tell me:
-report to sch by 8am
-flag raising in classroom
-check dhsmail for new timetable and download travel form
-sign and hand in travel form on mon
-bring thermometer
-check dhsmail twice a week or twice a day
-lessons start as usual

whatever happened to the ayg relay thing?
poor teachers, hafta carry the burden of calling every single student in their class to inform them fo the above.
any student who reports to sch late will be their fault, therotically.
and miss/ ms tan asked me 'who is beside me',
and i thought she meant register number,
when she meant physically who is beside me.
haha, then she wanted to speak to yiting yanjun and aileen on my phone to tell them whatever she just told me.
when i could have just passed them the msg.
or maybe she didnt trust me enough to pass the correct msg (which she was smart enough to think of that), so she spoke to all of them personally.
i wonder if i'll miss miss koh.
her nonchalent, calm, and as aileen calls it, the 'heck-care attitude'.
ha.

-michelle

2009-06-23T06:16:00.000-07:00

i finally found my liu yong book :D
shall start on it soon.
when i ask around i realise i have completed most of my hw,
in fact, even more than some of my class mates/ sch mates/ cca mates.
either i'm just efficient (which is what worries me and leads me to my second point)
or i missed out lotsa hw.
it's just quite impossible for someone who rarely completes assignment on time, procrastinates like there's no tmr, has an attention span of less than 15 mins, has no gift in academic tasks (ie. dumb) to finish most of her homework before her peers.

this is what my list consists of:
Chemistry:
1) Section A MCQ
2) Section B and C
*check erratum sheet for details
3) Kinetic particle theory wksht
4) Online quiz on dhsmail by 28th Jun 2009, 2355
5) Self study topic (download ppt)

Biology:
5) Nutrition in humans table wksht
6) Wksht 1(a)-digestion (revision)
7) Collect bio file

Chinese:
8) 读书报告 (刘墉) choose 3 to 4 散文, write 读书报告 for all.
-200 word summary for all COMBINED散文
-500 word 读后感 for all COMBINED散文
-come up with compre questions for ONE 散文 (6 questions)
*refer to tasksheet
9) One 剪报 from 联合早报, 500 words.
10) 作文 on the seven colours of the rainbow, choose one and use 比喻法. 500 words minimum.
11) 私函: 写信给你的国外笔友, 告诉他关于我国庆祝会"种族和谐日" 的缘由, 并且和他说说你的学校在随这一天的庆祝方式.

Maths:
12) Coordinate geometry
13) Quadratic equations
14) Quadratic function and inequalities
15) Indices and surds
16) Polynomials
17) Properties of circles
18) Trigo 1- bearings and angles of elevation/ depression (class prac 1)

Language Arts:
19) Bang bang you’re dead essay
-Josh lacks a sense of identity. Do you agree?
-Examine 3 characters, other than josh and clearly explain how they contribute to josh's actions
20) IDMI FILMING
21) Read Macbeth

Geography:
22) Population data organizer table
23) Geog essay worth 15 marks (tasksheet)

not that i've finished all of them obviously.
but the point is,
CAN ANY KIND SOUL HELP ME CHECK IF I MISSED OUT SOMETHING TERRIBLY IMPORTANT?
things that are NOT classified under 'terribly important':
-any cme/ bp/ side-topic subjs
-eportfolio
-something relatively insignificant eg, a piece of chinese wksht
-something for enrichment purposes eg, extra websites they want us to go to for self studying even though there's already the 99% foolproof ppt uploaded for us hence the website is considered, in my opinion, totally redundant.

thank you :)
idmi in school tmr.
cryst has flu like symptoms ):
and yiting has recovered from her fever :)
i found out my idmi isn't as behind as i originally thought it was :)
we still have hope!
and it's weird not seeing xinchen online these 2 days cos he's at camp.
i haven't finished asking him chem. ):

ah, talking on the phone with claire just now made me feel like that again.
and it was almost over. (or so i thought.)
how annoying.
i shall read my liu yong book now to distract myself :)
get well soon crystabelle and hope your condition doesn't turn for the worse tmr yiting :)

-michelle

2009-06-22T20:38:00.001-07:00

wanted to mug in sch with the girls today but yiting had fever so me and cryst didnt feel like going too.
highly probable that yiting has gotten h1n1 (in my view) cos she took temp for hong kong atheletes on sat for ayg,
4 hk athletes are confirmed cases of h1n1 now,
h1n1 syntoms take 3 days to show; she took their temps on sat- 3days later= today.

): lost my mood to blog about ytd ):
you could read yiting's blog (www.eating-me.blogspot.com)
or crystabelle's blog (www.trypanophobic-no-more.blogspot.com) for more details.

so we were supposed to meet the rest at 11,
but me and yiting were late (as usual, really sorry. shall try to quit this bad habit.) so when we reached there,
we stood around contacting people who weren't there yet.
(teoee esther fiona christina danna amanda and chinyee couldn't make it ): )
and suddenly yiting grabbed my hand really tightly and said 'shit, michelle let's go to the mrt station.'
even though i suspected what happened i still wanted to confirm so i turned back in time to see (whoever we saw at that time, that day, that place).
obviously i wanted to help yiting overcome her awkwardness so i pulled her back to say hi.
but she gave me her killer stare and pointedly glared at the other direction so she wouldn't face (whoever the main character was that time, that day, at that place).
ok anyway im not implying anything.
it's just so rare to see such a close, usually calm friend hyperventilating so much.
haha :)

ate, walked to pasir ris, rented double bikes.
and this time i rode the double bike so so so much smoothly than before!
lesser screamings, lesser falling off, lesser losing of balances.
me and yiting had to ride twice for every journey cos some couldn't ride the double ones haha.
fun experience, i like being at the back when yiting's at the front :D
i feel so safe with her there's no need for me to hold on to anything :)
double bike with me next time, anyone? hahaha
then adeline cut her foot in the sea ):
so we hobbled/carried/lifted her back to our shady area and tried to apply FA for her.
concluded we needed real FA so we returned our bikes and we all bus-ed to ehub. (with the help for cryst's newly invented plasters of 2-in-1 for adeline)
watched ghosts of girlfriends past again for me,
realise this is a very educational show esp for guys,
and got very annoyed at the row behind us for making so much loud comments.
so after movie we got dismissed, in a way.
and the 3 of us went crazy over That movie poster.
it was rather interesting, esp for yiting i suppose. ha.

-

i really don't know what to do now.
whole day of being at home, gonna meet cryst at bishan library later perhaps to find liu yong book.
i cant do any hw now cos i've either completed them, dont know how to do, need liu yog book, or i simply dont feel have the essay mood. (eg, geography.)
my mum brought my sis to tampanis 1,
bet they are there already.
didnt wanna go with them cos i don't feel like squeezing around with so many people.
and spending too much time with my family causes friction,
so to avoid too much sparks i've decided to spend time with them only when necessary.
ie. at night.
it's not that i don't love them, to clarify.
i really love them, treasure them, appreciate them.
i just like being with myself or with friends more. at this stage of life.
i know i'll regret saying this maybe 40 years later when my parents are leaving this world.
such complex feelings.

i had a weird dream last night. totally bizzare, and unrelated.

-michelle

2009-06-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

patrol outing today :)
too tired to think of nice words to describe it now.
so it'll be mostly pics.
rest are on fb.
(btw yiting your blogsong aint working so well cos im listening to it now and there are breaks every now and then.)

i wasn't the one who initiated this background. seriously. (which then erupted into a full blast cam whoring session, haha)

aww, i love this pic :)

really hilarious. i wonder if our definition of obsession is the same.

gonna meet yiting and cryst tmr again in sch to mug/ complete hw/ copy hw.
i hope i dont have tuition tmr. my tuition teacher must have gotten mad at me for changing my timetable so much she gve up on planning tuition for me. if she tells me i have tuition tmr i'd hafta tell her i cant make it which will in turn makes her more 'urgh' at me because i have done it to her so many times already ):

-michelle

2009-06-21T00:44:00.001-07:00

ok, so h1n1 is more serious than i thought.
but pleaseplease God i don't want hols to be dragged!
corny's going for obs tmr good luck :)
obs, as in OutwardBoundSingapore, O-B-S, not obs, as in what cryst is all gaga about.
haha.

crap i just remembered today's father's day!
didnt get my dad anything nor wished him yet.
i think he doesnt realise today's father's day too.
shall just ignore it until tonight dinner or something.
im not motivated to do geog,
see the question damn sian already.
foreign talent policies, migration policies vs pro natal and ante natal policies, under population and over population.
if im not wrong, we didnt even learn these in class.
or maybe we did but i slept too much to realise.
either way, it's still bad ):
ok i shall start now (or soon.)

and im really inspired by ray boltz songs.
this one made me cry. serious.

He heard the preacher say
A single dime can feed
A hungry boy or girl
With nothing to eat
So he pulled a dollar
From the pocket of his jeans
And he asked his mama
How many will this feed?
She just smiled
And when she told him ten
He reached back again

CHORUS:
What if I give all I have?
What will that gift do?
My child, a gift like that
Could change the world
It could feed a multitude
He didnt close his eyes
Or turn away
I can see him standing tall
He saw the need
And I can hear him say
What if I give all

Three birthday dollars
Could have bought a special toy
But he reminds me
Of another little boy
Who gave to Jesus
A gift of fish and bread
I wonder if he said

CHORUS (repeat)

And long ago a Father and a Son
Saw the children lost in sin
Can you see the tears
In the Fathers eyes
As Jesus says to him

What if I gave all I have?
What will that gift do?
My Son, that gift
Will change the world
It will free the multitudes

What if I give all I have?
What will that gift do?
My child a gift like that
Could change the world
It could feed a multitude
We cannot close our eyes
And turn away
When we hear His Spirit call
We see the need
Now let Him hear us say
What if I give all?
What if I give all?
-michelle

2009-06-20T08:50:00.000-07:00

BACK FROM MALAYSIA !!!
woohoo!
i'm can't type now...
don't ask why

off to obs on monday
i fell really unprepared!!!
i haven't packed yet la!!!!
this is sadness...
hopefully tmr chiong everything!!!
wish me luck for obs

--corny

2009-06-20T00:22:00.000-07:00

im such a failure.
for the entire day, i wanted to do geog essay.
and all i acheived was: i agreed with the statement to a large extent.
did the chem online quiz, attempted to read chem but fell asleep after 5 mins until mum woke me up.
i need a liu yong book, seriously.
unable to do anything because i dont have the damn book.
and im still thinking of patrol outing next mon at pasir ris!
well, it is p2's first outing in 2009 after all :)
expect myself to laugh like crap with cryst and yiting.
(im gonna cry if one of them cant go; you guys are going. RIGHT?)
OR ELSE, HAHAHA.
and jie4 outing at sentosa?
me and xintian are thinking of it :)
she wants next week, im thinking of eoys haha!

lastly, listen and enjoy! :)

-michelle

2009-06-19T06:42:00.000-07:00

i'd say its really worth sitting for 12 hours in the ops room of swissotel for ayg volunteering just for the food!
that was just breakfast, my dear friends.
didnt take any pics for lunch/dinner/ tea (which i didnt eat);
shall remember to take next friday, haha.
it was basically quite boring stuff,
just sit there wait for phone to ring and copy down details.
not allowed to post too much details heh.

i really dont want school hols to be extended!
anyone who agrees with me? :)
other than the fact that h1n1 is not even extremely serious,
does not endanger your life unless you have some personal illness (which can be activated through common flu virus too, not only through influenza A),
there're no death cases of h1n1 patients in spore (correct me if im wrong),
stopping students from entering school wont help spreading of virus be slowed down alot,
because they will just use that time to go shopping or meet friends and the aim of 'being confined to only a small area' won't be met either.

hence school shouldn't be closed further :)
the government is having too much control over his people,
want stop jiu stop,
want quarantine jiu quarantine.
if rules/ laws wasnt so easy to enforce upon people maybe rash decisions wouldnt be made so many times.
where's the 'fight back' spirit in singaporeans?!

ok, we just wanna get on with our lives. get it.

-michelle

2009-06-17T05:44:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel that im paying for the motivation.
going tuition to sit down there and complete my unfinished maths assignment doesnt really serve the purpose of attending TUITION.
tuition's supposed to be extra enrichment, teach you extra stuffs, explain to you questions you cant understand when your teacher goes through in class (but not cos you were sleeping, but because you really cannot catch up), and doing all sorts of extra things you're paying extra for.

oh crap this eccentric reflection must be from my mum's nagging just now.
ohwell but it is kinda true,
compared to last year i've been skipping tuition quite.. a few times this year.
and i actually completed my coordinate geo wksht which i deemed impossible at first cos i completely forgot everything except for how to find the gradient of a line with 2 points given.
quadratic equations left i shall work hard tonight (and if needed, the rest of my hols)
shall aim to attempt all questions by next tuition session.

on a sidenote, cos im talking to claire online now:

Claire Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn says:
Talk \
Go do Facebook quizzes they're fun

sometimes it's not so easy to let go. says:
haha
reccomend me some!
:D
im posting noww

Claire Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn says:
Posting what?

sometimes it's not so easy to let go. says:
blogggg

Claire Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn says:
Blog about me hhhooo

sometimes it's not so easy to let go. says:
HAHAHA
OKAY
Claire Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn says:
Tell me when you're done

sometimes it's not so easy to let go. says:
what should i say about you? O:
you love bears?
esp koala ones?
O:

Claire Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn says:
No la
Just crap
:D

koala bears are lovely arent they claire bear? :D

shall end with a classic 'i love you :D';
now i shall go complete attempt my quadratic equation wksht other than cos life's like that,
i just promised myself i'd do so.

-michelle

2009-06-16T08:14:00.001-07:00

from tmr onwards i would have no internet access till the 21st
thats sad..):

i haven't tidied up my bag yet and look at the time!
my mum gonna kill me but then again she's still up(:

i haven't completed my homework yet and i doubt i would have time to..
arghhh
i'm gonna complete at least math ws
i wonder what i'm gonna do about the projects...
ARGHHHH

its a freaking holiday HELLO?!!!

--corny
TOODLLES ALL ! for a longer time then usual.

2009-06-16T08:14:00.000-07:00

guides mugging session in the morning, then 2F outing at 1 plus.
in sch basically i wasnt doing anything much except for copying answers and collecting bio file.
i feel so proud of myself my bio file actually got humane grades.
oh yea reminds me i hafta go download the bio digestion ppt now.
-11.16pm-
-
-11.19-
ok im done :D
xintian got me quite curious about the influence boys over flowers have on people.
but i still aint gonna watch in case it gets me addicted.
which is bad since im already a very non-disciplined person.
2F outing at e-hub was nice.
ghosts of girlfriends past with 10 people,
the rest arcade or soccer?
'women like to be screwed but not to be screwed over. yea i know, irritating isn't it?!'
i hafta disagree not all female like to be screwed!
k anyway it was quite sexual in content, but rather interesting.
in a non-sick kinda way.
then bus-ed back to white sands and stoned while the others played arcade awhile.
like, i really sat there and almost fell asleep.
(gone case.)

i shall aim to complete maths in tuition tmr, though its highly impossible.
cos (almost) everyone around me is telling me how dissatisfied they are when they get a gpa of >3.2
motivates me to work hard(er), thanks guys.
:D
on a completely unrelated tone, here's a pic of 1520 who went for the church camp :D

-michelle

2009-06-15T01:37:00.000-07:00

so much distractions in life,
so much helplessness,
so much loneliness,
that i almost forget Jesus is still with me.
watching every step i took,
every word i say,
every thought my mind had.
thank Him for letting me go for the camp even though i wasnt especially excited about it before.

lifegame.
2 days of living your life in freecity,
studying, working, marrying, having kids, dying.
so i got a bachelor degree,
wanting to have greater choice of jobs, wanting to do something im interested in.
job interview to be a chef (there wasnt psychologist offered, and counsellor needed a PhD!)
and i got a manager position at a country club.
'well, at least i have an income now. better this than nothing.' i thought.
maybe its just my job,
but when i started work.
got so immensely busy i don't even have time to buy basic necessities,
that i hafta get my employees to buy them for me,
or just buy from any random businessman who walk past asking whether we need anything they're selling.
as in, reallyreallyreally busy.
i work, sold my things, until the cycle ends,
i rush to pay my taxes,
life checkup,
and cycle starts again.
totally no time to look around for someone rich to get married to so i wouldn't hafta slog my guts out for money.
(this was what ruth and i planned in the beginning hahaha)
since it was a church camp,
i knew i had to get baptised.
but the thing is:
my work started as soon as the music played,
how could i let go of my job responsibility to go find somewhere to get baptised at, right?
so after lunch on the 3rd day,
ruth and i walked past this table for us to paste our pictures on to get baptised.
since the both of us know we're gonna be working like there's no tomorrow when the cycle starts,
we hastily pasted our pictures there,
thinking we're safe,
thinking, ok, we got our names in the Book of Life, we are saved.
-
next cycle started, i got fired.
but you had no idea how relieved i felt.
finally, time to look around and observe how this city lives.
when i stepped out,
i realised everyone was so busy,
so busy getting their things sold,
so eager to earn money,
to earn prestige points,
to queue up buying their basic necessities.
and even though i had extra time,
i did not even bother to look for church service or worship.
i just stoned around, laughing at how life is with others.
next life checkup, i died.
and i went: what?! i died?
money and everything totally gone.
ok never mind, game's gonna end soon anyway.
and i thought since i got baptised, i'd be safe. go to heaven and everything y'know.
judgement day.
only 12 people managed to enter heaven.
even though it was only a game,
there were 3 churches.
2 wrong ones, only 1 correct one.
before judgement day,
the mayor went around giving some health insurance sticker for free to everyone.
but since i was already dead i didnt get one, duh.
turned out only the alert ones realise what was written on it,
and why we shouldn't take it.
mark of the beast, triple six.
-
after the game, chen mu shi (pastor tan, but we're used to calling him in chinese) cried so much,
and told all the 1520 ministry people,
how heartbroken he was when he was up there, looking at every one of us below.
how, even though this is just a game, when the real judgement day comes there will also be so many we love below, in the eternal lake of fire.
he cried so much that it made all of us cry too,
and this was the most memorable part of the whole game.
hugging each other thinking how stupid we were trying to earn so much, get such a high education, when we know everything's gonna end anyway.
on the extreme end,
daryl and weijing wanted comfort and luxury,
so they gathered a few other guys and robbed the bank.
they surrounded the bank and the both of them grabbed the dollar bills and ran for their lives.
so this conversation happened (as i heard from the girls in the bunk at night):
weijing: eh shiying, you heard the news just now right? got robbery at the bank.
shiying: -busy with her own things- ya i heard, horrible right.
weijing: um yea. i am the robber.
shiying: -silence- WHAT?! YOU ROBBED THE-
weijing: SHHHH! can you dont announce to the whole world!
after that.
daryl: eh, you know there was a robbery just now right.
shiying: yes, omgosh weijing was the robber can.
daryl: -silence- no, actually it was us.

really hilarious!
but after that during sharing they were saying how guilty and stupid they were,
and how scared they were.
cos even though it was a game,
they made the conscious choice to rob a bank when they want money,
and how would they know if they'd do the same thing in real life?
so much more interesting things happened but im lazy to type all out haha.
you hafta be there to experience the real working world and everything.
these 4 days thought me so much that's all i can say.
depended on God really like i never had for so long, devotion, sharing, praise, worship.
too long i've been thinking i can depend on myself for everything.
because all that i've done for studies and cca,
it's my work, my time, my plans.
but depending on myself can only get me this far.

'And Jesus looking upon them said to them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.'- Matthew 19:26

my life is changed, feels weird saying this, but yes.

“Then Jesus said to the disciples, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must put aside your selfish ambition, shoulder your cross, and follow me. If you try to keep your life for yourself, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for me, you will find true life. And how do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul?” -Matthew 16:24-26

if you see me working full time in a church ministry 10 years later you will know why, hahah.

Lord, draw me close to You, never let me go.

-michelle.
ps, im so lazy to upload pictures. if/when i compile the pics it'll be on facebook :)

2009-06-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

we couldn't play
you have no idea how much i hate him now
although its morally incorrect to hate him
i still hate him
not making any sense here.

i'm never never never gonna fill myself with that much of hope.faith or what so ever
it would just end up with DISAPPOINTMENT.HATRED

==corny

2009-06-12T07:26:00.000-07:00

I'M FREAKING OUT ABOUT OBS!!!!
ahh and everyone is like.. IT BE SO FUN!
what if i don't know every one in my group and i became anti-social and i keep quiet and be shy and everyone hates me and i hate them too and they throw me into the swamp and i DIE!
what if i can't stand the heat,activities and faint and no one notices and i DIE!
what if i didn't pack anything i need and i don't have that thing and became of that i drop out of the boat and drown and DIE!
what if ... aARGHH! what if i shame myself and DIE DIE DIE!!
i hate camps...actually I FEAR CAMPS!

oh freeaakked!!!
i discovered something.
about my sister! haha
p/s i think my family has GOOD genes. SMILES!

anyway i won't be touching my clarinet for 3 weeks!
dear dear clarinet hold on there yeah! i still love you!
i guess the reason i joined band was cos i wanted to continue playing my clarinet(:
i don't really like music , do i? opps(i seriously have no idea)

i'm starting to lose confident in relationships
like with people ( of all genders-.-)
but i shall regain it!
starting from my family!
mummy say we can play tennis again!
hope everyone can make it!
even if i dont get to hit a ball i know it be lotsa fun!
i HEART tennis . okay fine, I LOVE TENNIS!
i shall master it someday(:
oh and i wanna say this,
I HAVE AWESOME FRIENDS!!! (:
maybe its because i had bad friends in kindergarden or something..
i have great great friends in upper primary and secondary(:
and to tell the truth i don't deserve...
so THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU(:
MIXUE!!! [EUNICE BECKY OLIVIA YANMIN AMANDA,3K,2G,1F][PHOEBE DEBBIE JANICE SYAZANA EE SYFC][HUIYI JIAMIN JJ XINJIE GWEN WEILENG HUIZHEN CLARINET SECTION]
i feel retarded listed in out....
anyway and those we treat me like a friend, much loves(:
sorry if i left you out...

--corny

2009-06-10T05:49:00.001-07:00

started on idmi today :)
filmed the back scenes at yanjun's house,
with me and yiting getting off the wrong stops twice.
first time we took 2 stops ahead and still think we got off early,
then called yanjun and realised we passed by stops without realising.
then decided to walk back, but realise the previous bus stop didnt have the bus we took,
so we crossed the road and walked back.
then found the correct bus stop, got on the correct bus,
yanjun assuring us she will be waving to us at the correct stop so we just hafta look out for her.
passed the stop, saw yanjun waving madly,
me and yiting smiled back :)

and the bus continued driving off.

then we realised the bus wasnt stopping and even though i punched the bell button the drvier look back through the mirror and stared at me but he continued driving.
got off at the next stop and walked back,
with me and yiting laughing our asses off.
and the thing is,
YANJUN DIDNT REALISE WE WERE ON THAT BUS SO SHE JUST WAVED MADLY AT ANY 43 OR 135 THAT PASSES BY HAHAHAH!

ok i'd say we were quite productive managed to finish filming the indoors scenes already so left with outdoors ones we're gonna film them next week or something :)
im looking forward to next week, haha.
filming and editing on monday perhaps,
guides study sessions on tues morning,
2F outing on tuesday afternoon.
:)
(even though the 'study session' may be ruined by me as i'd be talking so much people cant concentrate and get irritated, haha)

im getting really hopeless.
i just cant stop thinking about you,
despite how distressed its making me.
it's driving me crazy,
the way i remember you, the ways i try to see you.
thing is,
this has happened to me once before,
and it didn't end with a happily ever after.
i better stop before history repeats itself.
even though i take geog; i heard mrs kang said it lotsa times before for the past 2 years. whatever.
snap back to reality, seriously.
-
on a completely unrelated tone, dont call/ sms me from tmr to sunday midnight unless its something really urgent.
define urgency yourself.
bye, till next week :)

-michelle

2009-06-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

so many things are happening at once
its hard to remember.

i finally got my hands on tennis with daddy
but it was embarrassing.
at least it was fun(: haha

i think i need more of this---> E.X.E.R.C.I.S.E

oh and i finally got to eat macs today(:
no idea what so exciting about it
but i was craving for it for a long period of time.

and i finally got my atm card
its nothing exciting too but i like the blue thing sticking out of my wallet!
i need a new wallet, maybe...

-corny

2009-06-08T05:30:00.001-07:00

ayg training today.
YESSSSS SWISSOTEL FOOD!
they better not disappoint me with cold takeaway food man.
hahaha.
ate british takeaway at raffles city basement after yearning for it for dont know how many months.
fried mars bars- as good as remembered :)
fried fish almost made me puked after the 6th/7th piece,
till i had to force people to eat it for me.
and y'know there's this shop which sells bubble tea,
with its menu, cup, cup label/ seal, straw, choice of drink EXACTLY the same as sweet talk's,
but they call themselves 'blogtea'.
-.-
i mean seriously, even their cup seal at the top had the word 'sweet talk' on it!
whats going on man.
hah, then off to national library with claire (:
attempted to find my liu yong book,
but to no avail.
read a little macbeth,
then we ended up talking.
as expected, duh, so people please dont count on me to have study dates with y'all.
hahah, left at 4.30 cos she had tuition.
went outside and saw this 'safety starts with me' campaign,
and some random guy asked to snap our photos for the campaign,
and that crazy claire agreed!
hahah, so we did! :

sorry the quality's quite horrible cos i scanned it in,
but the actual pic is real nice!
gonna be in school tmr, anyone wants to join me? :)
after claire leaves for idmi i'd be all alone, sigh.
or maybe i'll go home and leave home again for tuition in the afternoon.
no life, tsk.

OH AND BEFORE I FORGET (TODAY'S THE 8/6!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER MAVIS TEO MIN WEI!
thanks for being a wonderful adorable irritating bubbly cheerful lil' sister!
love you loads, even though im spending lesser and lesser time with you.
promise i'll bring you out one day (soon, i hope) to play or something!
really sorry for being extremely impatient sometimes, i will make time out for you!
I LOVE YOU :)

-michelle